Ryan's

L.O.V.E

2011-06-10T19:40:00.000-07:00

What does L.O.V.E stands for? Many have different meanings for it. It can be easily spelled out but knowing the true meaning is definitely a whole new issue.

As for me, i would like to understand it the simplest way it can be. Love is a form of expression through actions. It comes right from the heart which is then express through actions. Human likes to complicate things by defining things with formulas, profound terminologies when its just straight to the point and easy. Agree?

Having said that, i still having problems loving. I realise love is very subjective and many people feels differently about it. Loving your way may not be a form of love to the other party when they think otherwise. For instance, i know my gf don't like me to be worried. But i still am because i am worried for her safety and her well-being. However, she feels vexed because she can't do anything about me worrying. So, i'm caught in a dilemma.

Giving another example... My gf feels that she should not text me when i am busy because she may disrupt my work process. This is a form of love! But i decipher it the other way because i was hoping that she can text me and tell me she is worried about me and that she missed me dearly or at least post something sweet on my fb wall so that i feel warm and fuzzy. You see the point i am trying to deliver.

Even until now, i am still trying to understand. :(

Feeling like a Frog in a Well

2011-04-08T10:58:00.000-07:00

Arghhh! Everyone around me are going on a vacation! I have friends going to Hong Kong, Taiwan, Bangkok… Even my sworn brothers and my younger brother are having fun in Australia (Adelaide, Brisbane).

I am so bored at home stoning in front of my laptop and at the same time allowing my body to recuperate from illness :( Pathetic to the max level 100! My work shift does not allow me to go on a long getaway trip and all i could do is to imagine myself travelling abroad while looking at photos of my friends in exotic places on Facebook.

Travelling has been something i always sought after for. When i was young, my ambition was to travel around the world, and so is today! I love the thrill factor of flying on a plane, and expecting so many interesting events of fun and discovery when you touch down on somewhere unfamiliar. It will definitely be an added bonus if you are travelling with your friends and your love ones, agree?

I have plans to study abroad in Australia after my National Service. It will be a great chance to know how independent i can be through living in a totally new environment and adapting to the lifestyle and cultural diversities. One thing for sure is that the memories will be so reminiscing when you look back at the times you spent in foreign land and that you have stories to tell your future generation.

Cough, sneeze and headache.

2011-04-05T10:48:00.001-07:00

If only good things happen like "3-in-1". Having to endure three different sickness altogether is really tough. Coughing out phlegm, sneezing that makes my head spins which resulted in sharp pain at the back of my head... These only tell a sign that i need to rest!

sneeze sneeze sneeze

But the irony is i spent most of my available time sleeping. Even my gf complains that i am a pig. Probably i haven't gotten used to the work shift pattern. Shift 1 is morning shift (8am till 8pm) and shift 2 is night shift (8pm till 8am), follow by two off days.

The job can be demanding at times because the safety and custodial responsibility of the PICs relies solely on the lock up officers and we have to be vigilant. I am just praying that i can recover soon so that i can start spending my time better than to sleep it away.

I want to start my gym training! I have stopped going since last week and my body is shrinking. I hate it! Time to wack some weights soon!

Most importantly, i want to let my gf knows how much i love her and that nothing can hamper us or our relationship. I am sure we can tide through this tough times together. Be positive and make used of every opportunity to learn. It will be fruitful and rewarding. LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS :P

p@nd@ Eyes :(

2011-03-17T20:22:00.000-07:00

Now i have eyes like panda. I am feeling so exhausted after my first day at work. The workload was crazy and everyone got so busy especially nearing the end of our shift work. Time passes by so fast that my body has been working for 12 hours and was feeling all numbed.

Today will be my night shift and i am wondering if i can take it. :/ I better start stocking up some herbal tea for i will fall sick in no time.

I am cooking porridge for my dear dear cause she is sick :( I hope she will get better soon. I cook really nice porridge although i have never cooked them before. I guess its when you love her so much that you are willing to try anything impossible. Power of love huh... Thanks dear <3

I'm back again! :)

2011-03-16T10:27:00.000-07:00

WOW! How surprising that i start to blog in the wee hour after not doing so for almost a month or so. Initially, i had the idea of deleting my blog as i was too lazy and i doubt i will have the time to maintain it. But, i got my gf to 'revamp' my blog all over again hoping for a new start, so that i can post more happy and interesting posts.

Many interesting and eventful things took place recently and i have yet to update them on my blog. But those who added me on Facebook would have already know that i just graduated from my basic police training on the 3rd of March. That took place exactly two weeks ago and after passing out from Home Team Academy, i am posted to Bedok Police Divisional Headquarter as a Person-in-Custody officer. To put it briefly, i am in-charge of escorting accused and "jagar" the lock up! Tomorrow will be the first day of my work and hopefully everything goes well.

On that happy occasion, my family including my girlfriend and two of my childhood buddies were there to witness the parade. I was thankful that they came despite the rainy weather. Here are some photos snapshots:

From left to right (Dad, mum, gf and me, younger brother)

These are my childhood buddies (Feng Yuan and Brian) :)
Who's that chick beside me ??? ;D
NS 46- My fellow squad mates and our former F.I
'With power comes greater responsibilities! "

I think i look smart in my uniform, agree with me? Shall update what i have missed out lately on the subsequent post, if not i can't wake up on time for work tomorrow. Seeeeeeyyaaaaa~~~

Hi blogger!

2011-02-15T05:15:00.000-08:00

I can't freaking figure out what is happening. Everything is falling hard on me mercilessly that i have no chance of getting back to who i used to be. Nothing in life breaks even. Whatever you do, you will never get the same in return. Whoever came up with that "Boomerang Theory- What comes around goes around" is simply bullshit. Even if it's true, it will never apply to me.

How should i hang on when no one is reciprocating to me or whatever i do. I have feelings too and i just felt like it was all stepped on to the ground real hard. Am i of any importance?

Fuck my life, screw everything because nothing is real.

2011-01-30T06:36:00.000-08:00

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I feel the festive mood. Have you? :)

2011-01-30T01:39:00.000-08:00

The rainy days didn't dampened my festive mood. Chinese New Year is around the corner and everyone is doing their yearly spring cleaning, buying of new year goodies, mandarin oranges, putting up new year decorations...

I may be in camp, but i guess that's probably why i can feel it even more. I can sense this drastic change in atmosphere when i step out of camp. The feeling of life!

I got home after camp and i helped out with some cleaning. I cleaned up my room, wash the fans, clean the windows... I did up some new decorations using ang baos. Then i started missing the past few new years when i am a civilian. Maybe this year the feeling will be different cause its the first time celebrating new year as a NS man. :/

Had reunion dinner with my gf and her family at some restaurant in Bedok yesterday. my gf and i have been through two new years tgt and its the first time i was invited for reunion dinner with them. Of course, this is a very special occasion that is worth remembering!

In an hours time i am booking in camp again, as usual -.-! But i will be booking out on Wednesday. I swear i can't wait to meet my lovely pig. Hope days will pass faster. Just merely one month to POC! Hang in there Ryan! :D

Welcoming Year 2011 with big arms!

2011-01-08T02:10:00.000-08:00

A new year comes with a new set of resolutions. I know its 8 days late to blog about this and that i have yet to think about how my resolutions gonna be like previously. Now that i have it in mind, i shall list it down as a form of sharing and a reminder for me too! :)

Resolutions for the year 2011:
1) Obtain my driving license within this two years of my National Service (NS).
2) Enroll in part-time courses to prepare for my bachelor degree within this two years of my NS.
3) I must quit all the bad habits (For me to know)
4) I must start to save up EVEN MORE!
5) Spend more time with my family after my Passing Out Ceremony.
6) Love my girlfriend wholeheartedly and spend the rest of my life with her.
7) Be more cheerful and less angry.
8) Obtain a toner and leaner body.

My new year resolutions stop at #8 because 8 is an auspicious number and it is my favourite number :) But of course the list may be lengthen as time passes by because i can only think of this much to achieve.

Year 2010 has been good for me. Life then was full of fun and love. I am happy to have my gf as my main pillar of support and its an honor to start a brand new year with her! The future maybe unpredictable but i am certain that its a year full of improvements, surprises and hype! Hopefully, these will colour up my life a little and strengthen my relationship with my gf even more! :D

The Up-to-dates

2010-12-27T01:04:00.000-08:00

It's 0500 hrs and i have two more hours before i pack up and leave my house for HTA. That feeling of reluctance is hitting me hard again but under the "bobian" act, i have to report back. ;( I CAN"T WAIT TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF THAT PLACE!!!!!!!

Just as i thought i could graduate from the police academy with another 5 more weeks, my residential was extended till the 3rd March 2011 -.-! So from one month of stay in becomes a solid two months residential. It sure is very demoralising. Screw that!

Whatever it is, i had a wonderful Christmas. I had a long weekend until today because Christmas falls on a Saturday and HTA compensated us with a day more. Same thing goes for New Year Day. So i am looking forward to booking out at 12pm on this coming Friday and booking back in on the Monday before 9pm again!

As soon as i left the camp and reached home, i bathe and went off to meet my gf. Lazed around at her house for awhile and we headed for dinner at Tampines. Her mum was very happy that day and she asked if we wanna catch a midnight movie. So cute. I felt like i am part of their family now and my gf's mum seems to have accepted me already.

The subsequent day, we headed down town for sushi buffet. I haven't been going to town for some time and i felt like regained my life as a civilian for awhile. Of course that feeling is awesome and its especially so when i can spent quality time with my gf. (Y) Sengie really suck at eating buffet. haha! She is always the first one to feel bloated! :)

Sunday comes along very swiftly. As i mentioned in my previous post, good times always pass by very fast. :( We went suntanning at Tampines Swimming Complex and i swam a few laps to relax my tensed muscles. I injured my right knee while playing soccer in camp. I guessed it almost healed after the swimming session! :X

Fulfilling weekend right? :) Two more months to shout POC OH!!!! Look forward Ryan! :)

Quick updates about how i spent my block leave.

2010-12-19T08:49:00.000-08:00

Good times are always temporary and never last. That's really fuck up and demoralising. My block leave ended in a blink of an eye and the next thing i know, I HAVE TO FUCKING BOOK IN TOMORROW BEFORE 0830 HRS!!!!!!!!!!!
I just all these will end real soon. I have exactly 52 more days to pass out and i am counting down everyday.

So what have i been doing all these while? It was rather unfortunate that my block leave coincides with my gf's test. But i am contented that i could accompany her and a pillar of support at least when she is feeling stressful while studying. :)

Right now, i am in a state of drowsiness and at any point of time i will fall asleep while drafting my post. So all i could remember is what happens today. I went to the temple with my mum in the morning and met up with baby in the late afternoon.

We went down to Changi Expo for Crocs sale. I bought a slipped on for twenty bucks ad baby bought herself a Crocs shoe and it looks great on her. There was also a promotion where Jibbitz are sold for $5 per pack. By the way, Jibbitz are small little decorative charms for the holes in Crocs footwear! I have them all on my Crocs sandals! :)

Alright, time to go to bed before i have problems waking up tml! Shall be back on Friday, Christmas Eve1 ;) See you~

It feels like everything just happened a moment ago...

2010-12-11T00:27:00.000-08:00

Time is like an illusion. It passes by swiftly yet strangely, as though events that occurred some time ago took place just yesterday. Every part of the memory is evident and vivid. It's just mysteriously magical!

From the moment i reported at Home Team Academy (HTA) to every single strings of event that took place on the first day still remains afresh in my mind till now. The lonesome confinement week that got me so home-sick and having to part with my lovely girlfriend temporarily. The grueling physical trainings that pushes me to my limit and beyond. Looking back now, it made me realised how time flies and wait for no man!

I have come a long way and barely two more months will be my Passing Out Parade. That will mark the end of my five months residential police basic course in HTA :) I am really looking forward to that day because my family and my gf will be able to see me in police uniform marching smartly with my head up high and witness my successful graduation!

At the mean time, i am having my block leave till next week Monday! :) It is really a blessing to have this short break because i am missing my civilian life. I am going to savour every moment of my one week break. I have yet to plan what to do with my time but definitely i am spending it with my family and my gf!

I shall make it a point to journal down how i spent my day everyday since i have quite a lot of time now. Shall update my blog again! :)

A unique and special way to celebrate my one year anniversary with baby!

2010-11-27T08:47:00.001-08:00

You wanna make a guess how my gf and i celebrated our 1 year anniversary?? :) I am quite certain that no one has ever have one that is more special than mine- MOVING HOUSE! *Thumbs up! Instead of doing the norms like what normal couples would do for their one year anniversary, my gf and i sweated and stink like hell as a result of moving stuff over to her new residence. :D

Packing her house is so awesomely fun! Its like treasure hunt where you get to find many interesting "treasures" of her past that she don't even know until we uncover it while packing. haha~ We found money in Ang Paos, her secondary school passport size photos (looks chubby and cute!), love letters from her Exs, sorry note for her mum... So much more to even type it out here now.

After packing, her mum drove us over with her packed stuff to her new house. We went there to do house cleaning while her mum went off to settle some other stuff at the old house. We cleaned the windows and just that was enough to knock us out or rather me i should say. There were like empty ant nests on the rims and the outside walls of the windows. I am afraid of creepy crawlies, so i was literally shouting, pestering and begging her to help me remove it. i know i am acting like a pussy here but really ah, i have phobia of insects! *Just imagine that scene is enough to make you laugh.

I was so satisfied with myself because i cleaned every corner of her room and it seems like its dust-free. For your information, i am a clean freak and when it comes to cleanliness, i am very particular about it. Maybe you should see my room and you know how. haha!

After cleaning, we went for dinner with her parents and subsequently, we headed to Century Square for Harry Potter and the the Deathly Hallows. It was nice but the ending was abrupt ;( I can't wait for part 2 to be up soon!

Once again, Happy 1st year anniversary baby! I really enjoyed myself even though my gf thinks it isn't an ideal way of spending our anniversary like that. To me, being able to be with you is the most important thing and no matter what we are doing, doing it together is the key. We have next week to celebrate properly k? :)

28th November 2009 till 28th November 2010 and more... ♥

Yet Another Family Gathering. But Its An Enjoyable one!

2010-11-20T21:21:00.000-08:00

I hate to say this, but i am going to book in again later! :( I guess military life isn't my cup of tea. I don't like to be bounded by tons of rules and regulations, having to be at the best of my behaviour all the time. It's just not my personality.

Like what many people would say, " What to do? Suck Thumb lo!". Since i am in this situation, i just have to make the best out of everything inside. On the bright side, time is passing real fast and without realising, i have been through 2 months almost three months already. So hang in there Ryan, TWO MORE MONTHS TO PASS OUT! :)

So, talking about my family dinner yesterday. It was kinda special occasion because my aunt and her husband (paternal side) came back to Singapore for a visit. She migrated to Netherlands at the age of 24 and met her husband there. She will come back every two to five years to pay us a visit.

My girlfriend was asked to join us too and that doubled the happiness! We went to a vegetarian eatery @ Ang Mo Kio to celebrate their visit to Singapore. We ordered like more than 7 plates of dish and even though i was quite sick yesterday, i still ate a lot. My appetite was crazily huge probably it was a harmonious gathering.

Both my aunt and my uncle likes her a lot. Judging from the fact that they saw her for the first time, they had great impression about her. My uncle told me to treasure her and that we look very compatible. As for my aunt, she gave me this cheeky grin and said she is pretty and i have good choice. haha! (I bet when my gf reads this she will smile like crazy) :D Anyway, everyone enjoyed themselves and it felt like our relationship seems closer even though we stay so far apart from each other.

We took some photos at home before leaving for dinner :)

From left to right ( My gf and i, uncle and aunt from Holland, Ah-Ma, second aunt and uncle) and younger brother in the center!

We look like a happy family. I love this picture a lot!

A picture with my uncle and aunt. The genuine smiles on our faces tell it all!

I have to book in soon~ I shall blog again as soon as i book out next week. Next week i have another thing to look forward to :) shall keep in suspense first hehe! Baby, i think you should know what is it huh? :) I love you okay and miss meeeee! Love you forever and ever~

Sick Spell :(

2010-11-19T19:01:00.000-08:00

On Friday, i was still jumpy and bouncy in the morning knowing that i am booking out of camp today. Initially, i felt like there were ants crawling around my throat when the itch soon becomes an acute pain that i could barely swallow my saliva! I fall sick!

Its fuck up knowing that you can leave the camp to enjoy but because you are sick, you can't enjoy to the fullest. Of course i can still go out, but with that pain in my throat really makes my day goes bad. I have to control what i eat, i have to keep on drinking water to hydrate my body even i feel bloated. Sucks big time.

The pain woke me up in the middle of the night and i have to constantly clear the phlegm in my throat to ease the pain a little. ARGHHHH! :( I hope there is like an instant remedy or something so at least i can spent my Saturday more meaningfully.

My girlfriend and i have been planning to play basketball don't know since when. We decided to play this Saturday but unfortunately, i am sick and we have to call it off again. But still i am going to her house to find her and accompany her to study because i miss her a lot! :X

Hopefully when i see her, my sick spell will be removed instantly. :) She is my remedy, she is my everything!

SEE YOU SOON PIGGY~ I LOVE YOU!!!

Writing lines? What the Fuck?!?!

2010-11-16T09:08:00.000-08:00

Think about this...

Maybe guys know better...

In NS you can expect all kinds of punishments and they are given by instructors with JUSTIFIED REASONS! The first relation to punishments that come to mind would probably be something physical like maybe push-ups, sit-ups, running?

Have you come across writing lines as a form of punishment? Well, it definitely sound absurd to you. You may be thinking... WTF? Write lines is like primary school way of punishing students who disobey.

Damn right! I "kena" 10,000 lines. The reason behind this shit i really don't wish to say because this punishment is definitely not justifiable in the first place. Secondly, this punishment isn't constructive because i may be writing all 10,000 lines but deep down in my heart i am cursing you damn fucking hard and wish they all hit! Thirdly, i feel like i am treated by a kid because i am a fucking grown up and maybe the one giving this punishment should grow some more hair to prove your maturity.

SO FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOU VERY MUCH! May god fuck you hard!

Is Singapore Really a Safe Place to Be? Think twice...

2010-11-13T18:15:00.002-08:00

We can't blame it entirely on the competency of the Police. It is true that every Police officers have the responsibility to protect life and property, prevent and detect crime. But then again, assess on the size of the police resource as compared to nearly 6 million of Singapore's population.

They may have all legal powers to enforce law and order but is there enough police to deter crimes if just 0.1% of the population commits crime? Don't look at things on the surface and think deeper.

Sourcing from a recent gang rioting case, a 19 years old Republic Polytechnic student- Darren Ng Wei Jie was killed after a brutal attacked @ Downtown East. It was believed to be a gang -related feud more than just a "staring" case. This is a case of a murder involving YOUTHS. Is pride and gang worth more than your life? Does that make a worthy trade off? Youngsters, please think again!

Earlier this week, a group of parang-armed men assaulted more than 20 youths in Bukit Panjang, injuring 7 of them. Why has the world become so chaotic? Maybe the world is coming to an end soon? All i know is we should start doing some soul searching and realise what kind of environment we want to live in. A safe and secure place where we are free to roam around and nothing happens even at night, or one that crimes are taking place anywhere and for fear that you will be the next targeted victim?

To make the country a better place to live harmoniously is a collective effort. It starts from an individual. Think before acting because once you make a mistake, you can't turn it around. Being put behind bars isn't an easy life. Your life is wasted in exchange for a moment of folly.

Of course, residents must work cohesively with the Singapore Police Force. We can't just expect safety just by having police presence all the time. We all play a part! Be vigilant!

Is Singapore eally a safe place to be? Think twice...

2010-11-13T18:15:00.001-08:00

Just the Way You Are - Bruno Mars

2010-11-07T22:15:00.000-08:00

Oh, her eyes, her eyes make the stars look like they're not shinin'

Her hair, her hair falls perfectly without her tryin'
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Yeah, I know, I know when I compliment her, she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay?
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
'Cause girl, you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh, you know, you know, you know I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for, then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking if you look okay
You know I'll say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
'Cause girl, you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl, you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
'Cause girl, you're amazing
Just the way you are, yeah

I really love this song because when i listen to it, the lyrics reminds me of you. girl, you are amazing beautiful to me and no one else could replace that triumph position of yours in my heart.

Just a few more hours before booking in camp. I miss the time we spent together and i feel as though we are already married. Don't you think so? :) I miss you and we shall meet each other next week. love you forever and always~

Happy Birthday to my Baby Girl ♥

2010-11-07T09:03:00.000-08:00

Once again, Happy 18th Birthday to you baby Sengie ♥. Thankfully the celebration and surprises turned out to be successful. The preparation and planning of surprises was a little rush because i'm in camp and time was tight. But last Thursday was a public holiday so i have slightly more time to prepare or it would be near impossible for all these to be executed successfully. Thank god!

At the end of it all, i guess i am good at giving surprises :D I leave no clue as of what i am doing for her and made her expect anything and everything that could possibly taken place during the outing on Friday @ Marina Barrage. So thumbs up for me please >.<

Of course, i wanna thank Si Hui for her help in making all these a success too. I think she is really a good actor and making Sengie fall into the whole plan thing when Sengie is always foiling the plan. It's quite a plan in the ass when baby is trying to change our plans here and there but what to do? You are my lovely girlfriend :P

So right after i booked out on Thursday at 2pm, i rushed to Lot 1 to shop for her present. I lied to her that i am still in camp so she wouldn't be aware of this. She has been complaining about her ugly tattered and torn wallet and that she is embarrass to carry it out. So, i went around the entire mall to shop for one that suits her style. I stopped at the wallet Shop but...

I thought i could find more variety and choices elsewhere so i went to Dhoby Ghaut to shop around. Unfortunately, i couldn't find so i went back to Lot 1 Wallet Shop and got her a Guy Laroche wallet ;) But i planned to give her after the outing when she comes my house. hehe! Then i got it wrapped and got home at around 5pm. I lied to baby that i am still in camp and probably couldn't make it in time to meet her during her hockey training when i was already about to leave home and surprise her in school! I was tired but seeing that smile and amazement on her face when she saw me was enough to keep me going.

Same goes for Friday, an outing day for the hockey peeps @ Marina Barrage. But rightfully, its actually her birthday celebration together with three other November babies: Mu Chen, Edmund and DJ. I bought four small cakes and rushed to buy a birthday card for baby. I took the whole night thinking about what to write and then i transferred them to the card at Long John Silver. It's quite embarrassing to write there and there are many eyes watching me. It's just weird. But for you i did it! :)

Then i start reporting to my boss. Si Hui about my whereabouts and plan our moves so that i would reach at the right time and that Sengie will not find out that i am reaching anytime soon. I waited and linger around Dhoby Ghaut because baby have yet to meet Si Hui and gang at Marina Bay Mrt Station. Lots of waiting here and there and there was slight drizzle when i was taking bus to Marina Barrage. When i got there, the rain got slightly heavier.

Then i got Si Hui's call that Ameer and gang are going to smoke and that i can meet them and lit up the candles on the cake and Si Hui tried to block Sengie so that she can't see me. We lit up the small cakes and we walked towards where they were sitting. I was hiding behind the group and creeping behind holding on to the cake properly hoping the flame on the candle would not go off. Still have to brave through the rain some more lei! The part when she was taken aback when she saw me was priceless. All these efforts was just to see her smile that's all. She is happy and so am i! :) Shall put up some photos to do illustrations....

Happy Birthday Baby Girl :)

Love you forever ♥

I love this picture a lot. It's so candid...

We had joy, we had fun...

This is so gangster. Gosh... Aren't we suppose to be good citizens?!

Group photo before we leave our meeting area

Last group photo before we head for dinner @ Wendy's

It was a great Friday not inclusive of other things we did on Saturday ;) I know you enjoyed yourself and that is all that matters. I hope you will cherish this wonderful memories and live your life to the fullest. Sleep well tomight and all the best for your hockey match against ITE tomorrow. I love you forever :)

I'm back :)

2010-10-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

Its been two weeks since i last blogged. The time spent on internet is getting lesser because i am in the camp most of the time and my book out days are planned to meet and spend quality time with my girlfriend. I love her a lot so she is always my priority.

Anyway, life in Home Team Academy (HTA) is getting faster and without realising, i've already underwent 2 months of Prep Course training. This coming week shall be the start of my Basic Police Training (BPT)when i will undergo law lessons, swimming test, Police Standard Obstacle Course, Drill Test...and this will last me another 3 more months!

You may be wondering why i'm having 5 months of training right? CAUSE I FAIL MY NAPHA before my enlistment. So my advise to the guys is, pass your NAPHA and don't waste your time having extra two months serving NS.

This coming Tuesday is the enlistment day of the 141th intake fit squad. My squad was chosen to be the demo drill squad and i am involved in the demo drill performance for the parents who are accompanying their so to the camp. Our squad have been training rigorously for this performance and i hope it will turn out successful!

Today i joined baby and her family to Johor Bahru for dinner and shopping! As it was a short trip to celebrate her mum's belated birthday, baby and i went to bought a card this morning. We had a sumptuous dinner and we went to Giant to do some grocery shopping. I took this opportunity to purchase some basic necessities and food for my camp since thongs are cheaper there.

After which, we went to some roadside stalls to have deserts and light snacks. Their family is very welcoming and i feel so comfortable being able to talk to them and laugh when we are cracking jokes. Things are getting on the track as time goes by and i am grateful for that.

Good times always end very soon, by then it was already 10 plus at night. Along the way by car, we had lot of crazy laughter, we played crazily and i swear i had a great time. Thank you baby for being so supportive and making things better even when i am in the camp.

You are a different girl and you are the one i trust. You are all i ever need! :)

Cherishing every bit of time with you :)

2010-10-10T19:04:00.000-07:00

As usual, every Friday is my book out day and instead of hailing for cabs, i took public transport back home for the first time. Reason being i have to save money according to my dearest baby :) By the time i got home, it was already 8pm. Blame it on traffic jams! I guess road expansion works didn't solve the problem of road congestion! -.-

Having baby to join my family for dinner every Friday has become a must since my parents have sort of acknowledge her as my official girlfriend. I still remembered how anxious baby was when my parents asked her over for dinner for the first time. She was constantly conscious of her dressing, her behaviour and even how hard she tried to conceal her anxiousness, i can still read them all :)

Our plan on Saturday was to shop in town and catch a movie there but it was foiled. We were too lazy and that we agreed to save money so we had lunch at Tampines and watched movie at Century Square in the end. We bought tickets for Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen. I saw this movie on the newspaper while i was in the camp. I have been telling baby how much i want to watch this show ever since.

Donnie Yen, who previously acted in Ip Man was the main lead and the action director for this movie. The Legend of the Fist was a great breakthrough from Ip Man. The story plot was captivating as it has different elements such as war, romance, kinship, action pack fighting scenes etc. There is definitely a second part to the movie and i am looking forward to it :)

After movie, we headed down to Giant for some shopping as i need to buy washing powder and shower gel back to camp before it finishes. I felt comforting to go on shopping trips with baby all the time too and only two of us know why. We went to courts subsequently to check out on the specifications and pricing for laptops. I am intending to buy a new laptop because my current one is really in bad condition.

Everything went well when i started feeling nauseous after dinner. I started vomiting and it got worst when i experience stomachache, flu, headache and nauseous all at once. Baby was worried the entire night and she accompanied me to Changi General Hospital on Sunday morning. I was diagnosed with gastroenteritis :(

I rested on my bed feeling drowsy due to the after effects of the medicine. Nothing was more comforting to have baby seating by my bed and holding her warm hands to sleep.

All these precious little moments bind us together and never let us fall apart. Even if we do, these sweet memories will be remembered and safe kept in my mind. I love you dearest baby :)

Nothing is better to be with you during my book out day!

2010-10-02T09:22:00.000-07:00

Time passed so swiftly that one month of training in Home Team Academy has passed in a blink of an eye. So fast that as if my enlistment just started yesterday and i can't believe it! Every week i am looking forward to booking out on Friday because i can't wait to see my baby. I miss her so much!

On Friday, i met up with bee at my house and we went for dinner at Changi Point after unpacking my stuff. I have never seen baby eat so much and having a satisfied grin on her face. I was really taken aback by her appetite but her smile simply warms my heart though♥ The entire Friday was devoted to her and i really had so much fun.

These were taken while waiting for our food to be served:

When we go back home:

Today, baby came over to my house for lunch! My mum cooked steam rice with corn soup and i seriously miss her cooking so much. Meals at the camp really suck and even though i have gotten used to the meals already, i still love home cooked food! That's when i learn to appreciate what i have and never take them for granted.

After which, we headed down town in the late evening to do some window shopping! We went to Orchard and baby bought a shorts at Cotton On. Then we headed down to Far East to find my cap cause i think i need more variety of head gear. I saw this Nike cap at Tangs that looks damn awesome and now i am so tempted to buy. Its a black cap with neon green Nike prints in front. Baby, will you buy it for me? :(

After which we went for dinner and we took a bus to Dempsey Hill for Ben and Jerry's Ice cream. Baby and i have been so excited about this because we both love chocolate cookie dough and that this is the first time we go there together. Anyway, we ordered a super mix in which there is three toppings of different flavored ice cream with hot caramel toppings on it YUMMY!!! :)

Looks good eh! :D

I am waiting impatiently to eat!

So is greedy baby...

Once she starts eating...

She can't stop...

Then she smiles widely there after :D CUTE!

I am going to book in tomorrow again and baby have to wait for 5 more days to my book out day again! :( but i promise i will make the best out of every meet up ok? :) I miss you you know? Hang it there and 5 months is going to pass swiftly. wait for me my dear.. Will you?

Bumper Car Fun

2010-09-11T10:16:00.000-07:00

Baby is busy with her revision so we decided to meet up only in the evening for dinner. So, while she is studying at home, i went to tailor my pants which i have been procrastinating for quite long. When i came back home, ironed my police book-in attire and packed the necessary items to be brought in so as to make preparation easier tomorrow.

Met up with baby at 7pm then we went to buy my singlet and had dinner afterward. I accompanied baby to study further at Macs. Macs was relatively crowded today as there are many important football matches coming along. Patrons of Macs are probably hardcore fans of the teams, yearning to catch the live games there. Jeers and cheers were every where. My favourite team, Manchester United is playing against Everton, but the Devils lost :(

After studying, we had this random idea of patronizing a 'pasar malam' just beside Tampines MRT. Baby bought her nail polishes and we decided to visit the funfair just beside the stalls.

She was hesitating to play the bumper car because she had a bad experience when she was young. But i knew that deep down, she wanted to play so we went to buy the tix in the end. The tix cost $6 which is quite expensive but i thought it was worthwhile.

We got into one of the bumper car and baby's expression was just priceless. She is so freaky nervous even she tries to conceal it. Cute (Y) When the car started moving, bumping and banging begins. Instead of banging the cars around me, i tried to avoid being bumped. Baby was so excited and she was laughing out loud in exhilaration.

Its so long since i see her had so much fun. Having seeing her so happy, i feel so pleased deep down. :) But i got myself a big bruised because my leg was too long that when i was hit by one of the bumper cars, the impact pushjes my leg and whacked against the front. :X

Lets go for bumper car ride again ok? :D

痴心绝对 Cover

2010-09-11T00:44:00.000-07:00

I have been wanting to do this and thought it would be good to make a first step by uploading my covers on my blog. Feel free to comment about it because feedback are important for my improvements! hope you guys will like it :) Thank you...

Top 10 reasons why i love my girlfriend so much! :D

2010-09-10T10:50:00.000-07:00

Okay, some background of this post...

Baby came over to my house to stay on the day i book out. The very next day, she was busy revising her work for her exam on Monday while i was sleeping like a dead log with my blanket fully covered my body. So, she came to disturb me and according to her, i was twitching my eyes when she poke it, twitching my cheek when she kissed it and pinch. She said she find it funny when i covered myself with blanket and it seems like i was no where to be found on the bed. -.- She finds me cute and she loves me so much...

So, we decided to give the top ten reasons why we love each other! The things listed below isn't reasons but plus points to why i love you even more :)

1) She has a pair of chubby cheeks that makes me want to pinch and kiss so much! :) And sometimes sinking my nose in to your cheek.

2) She has this unique smile when she is angry and smile at the same time. The expression is so cute that makes me want to cuddle you so much. * I have a picture of that smile...

3) She is so thoughtful and sweet. In fact, she made a book with beautiful drawings, quotes and her penned down thoughts for me to read while i am in camp so i can keep her close to me before i sleep.

4) Her laughter never fails to make me feel happy. It is something that makes me feels assured that she is alright and living her life happily.

5) She is cheeky and playful. I love it when she disturbs me when i'm sleeping even if it is irritating and i chased her away. It makes me feels wanted and she love the way i am.

6) I love the way she lies her head on my chest. It makes me feel warm and the need to cuddle and protect her.

7) she is my financial controller. She always reminds me to save money and not to waste money on cab fares and unnecessary things. It makes me feels like we are already married!

8) My gf is full of ideas. She never fails to keep me in suspense and surprise me with somethings all of a sudden. The birthday cake she made for me, the cards and letters she wrote for me, the book she done up for me. I can see the total effort she put in. I feel loved.

9) Her determination to do something. I must say she is a girl with strong determination. No matter how tired she is, she continues to fight on and strive for her best. Hockey, studies, her family and this relationship.

10) Lastly, her eyes. Only i know how mesmerizing her eyes can be. The way she looked at me proves my importance to her. That's the reason why i like to kiss her eyes ;)

You made me feel my importance in your life, and no matter how tough it may seem to be, you have never given up hope. Its going to be a long wait but i make sure your waiting is worthwhile. Much more than you can imagine! I love you :)

A blessing in Disguise or...

2010-09-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

I came home from camp yesterday as my confinement week coincides with Hari Raya. Which will mean my confinement will commence on next Monday and instead of 10 days of training, its 12 days of training straight.

If you say i am lucky, i think i really am because i get to experience the life as a police trainee first hand and enjoy a "long" holiday with my family and gf. On the other hand, it may be seen as unlucky because my confinement and training days will be lengthen. So, the deal is this, if you think on the positive side, holidays is a blessing!

Life in there is considered "jialat" as a trainee. You get ordered around, you get punished for no reason, and living in there is definitely a big change since i have leading a civilian life for almost 18 years of my life. But thinking on the bright side, whatever shit you get in the academy is definitely better shit that you get in army. I bet many who been through that will agree with me!

I can't wait for this to pass, at least for POP to come. Still a long way i know, but i guess i have already gotten use to the life in there. Good luck to me and i am going to do whatever it takes to keep fit and chiong! :)

Packing up for a big day

2010-09-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

I am having mix feelings for my enlistment day tomorrow. I'm feeling all excited about what's gonna happen at Home Team Academy and the journey i'm embarking ahead. At the same time i am starting to miss my civilian life already.

I miss my family, my room, my bed, my stress-less life which i can do whatever i want, and of course my gf. Or maybe there are more on the list but i have to wait till training starts then i will realise!?! After all, its what a Singaporean guy should go through, so i should stop thinking and be a man! :)

In fact, there is nothing much to pack because the training kits and uniforms will be given. I spend a day with my gf accompanying her to study and prepared some stuffs needed in the camp. I bought a small alarm clock which cost $5 and photocopied my "O"-Levels result slip. Other things were prepared long ago so today packing was made much easier. So these are the items i'm bringing along! Check them out...

This is the bag i'm bringing...

Brought some documents for validation and registration purposes

Toiletries and washing detergent!

Some hangers for my uniform and dry my clothes

Towels for bathing and extra civilian clothes for book out

My "lao pok kai" phone and spare batteries (Y)

Alarm clock, padlock and nail cutters...

Goggles for swimming lessons

And, slippers!

So, i'm done with packing. But before going to sleep, i remembered something. While i was with baby at Bedok, we bought a can of cat food to feed our cats. We went to feed this light brownish cat that we named her Garfield. But she wasn't in a mood to eat. So, we decided to leave and feed another cat called Fei Mao but on the way, we saw another cat sleeping in a bicycle basket.

When i brought the opened can food closer to it, she went whinning and meowing away and that we thought we heard her saying "I want! I want!" It really freaks us out. Not any longer, we saw this whitish cockroach feeding on a dead cockroach nymph. Then we ended up having a fight with a broom found out of no where! LOL~

After two weeks, we go feed cats again k bee? :) I will miss you and i'm starting to miss you ardy.. Alright, wish me luck, i'm off to bed alrdy. Love~~~

Just you and me and nothing else matters!

2010-09-04T10:10:00.000-07:00

Despite exams are starting on next Monday, i was glad that my gf put aside her study time and watched me played the hockey game today at the Delta Sports Complex. She values her academics more than anything else and for her to sacrifice the study time for me, i feel like she loves me a lot.

Of course, not only this makes me feel this way, but her everything just simply makes me wants her more and never let her go. Her cheeky smiles when she does something silly. Her angry angry smiles when she is angry at me but can't help smiling. Her cute puffy cheeks that makes me having the urge to pinch her cheek or nimble it with my lips all the time!

No relationships survive without quarrels. I believe when two people are together, there are bound to have differences in point of views, the varied styles of doing things due to the differences in their living background so on and so fourth.

I have many instances when i quarrel with my gf but i see them in a diplomatic manner.We both get very upset and sometimes i may even make things worst due to my anger. My anger is a killer, its like self destruction but inflicting harm on others too. But, i will calm down and after having my thoughts sorted out, i try to talk things out with my gf and of course in an apologetic way. The EGO, which man have the tendency of choosing it more than admitting mistakes in a relationship, MUST BE LET GO!

For a choice between my gf and my ego, the final deal is definitely my lovely girl. I really love her a lot and i'm not even ashamed to let people know. I'm going through a tough phase of my life now but i embrace every moment. I am leaving for National Service soon.

Two years of serving the nation and if you say its a long duration, life as an NS man is much easier now as compared to the veteran batch. But come to think of it, it isn't a short period because many changes can take place within these couple of years.

I constantly tell myself that i have no regrets! I love her whole-heartedly and i did my best in making her feel loved and assured. Looking back at the past 8 months that we have been through, its like a thrilling roller coaster rides full of peaks and dips. It made me realised that we have been through so many things that no other people could speak of it or even comment because they aren't experiencing what we've been through.

PS:
I will need you to wait for me! I know how tiring and lonely it can be, but we have to hang on. No matter what happens, i will be here for you and i promise you that. It is a tough phase for i have to put you aside for a little while. But i promise there is not any moments when i stop thinking of you! After my NS, it will just be you and me and i will make every wait worthwhile for you!

Ryan

Botakkkkkkkkk :)

2010-09-01T10:12:00.000-07:00

Every physically-abled man in Singapore have to do this once in a life time...
Whether they like it or not...

"BOTAK" (Standard NS men hairstyle/ Crew cut).

This isn't my once in a life time experience anymore because i used to have this "botak" hairstyle when i was in my primary school days. Even until Secondary one i was still cutting that hair. :) So, its kinda like been there done that you know!

Having had my long hair for very long, i feel weird and look weird with such a short hair. It seems like my head is smaller as compared to my body frame! Maybe when you see me, you get what i mean :) When wind blows, my scalp will feel itchy due to the effect of the breeze. Nonetheless, its not a choice and somehow i think i'm feeling ok about it.

Exactly five more days to enlistment and i'm starting to miss the life as a civilian. But i'm sure the life in camp is going to be fun and a very good phase for a change. I'm all ready! :)

Head spinning like a freaking whirlpool.

2010-08-28T10:51:00.000-07:00

After supper with baby yesterday, i went home to wait for Brian and Feng Yuan's call to meet them up later in the night. They had a movie previously and decided that we should have an impromptu meet up session at around 1am.

I was having a runny nose then and had been sneezing the whole time while baby was at my house and it never got any better even when i met up with my brothers. While i was at home waiting for their call, i took a flu pill. The medication took its effect when i met up with them. I sneezed, blew my nose and had a headache which resulted me in a state of exhaustion!

By the time we left, it was around 4 plus in the morning. I only managed to sleep at 5am and woke up at 3pm in the afternoon! Sleeping at unearthly hours makes me feel lousy. Maybe i'm old to experience sleeping at late hours. It's a sign that i am getting old :(

The moment i woke up, I bathed and headed to work after that. Work was definitely terrible since i did not have enough sleep and the long queue of people waiting to be seated in the restaurant isn't helping any bit. The queue was unusually long. Normally the queue should gets shorter by 9am but today wasn't the case. The patrons today were so overwhelming that my crew and i had to work overtime. i ended up having to take bus 88 back home because my last bus for bus 86 has left by the time i ended work :(

Having said that, i think i need to sleep already. Tomorrow, i have to wake up early for my hockey match which starts at 1030 at DELTA! FAR :( Alright, shall blog again... ...

Alone at home :(

2010-08-26T04:28:00.000-07:00

Initially, i had the intention of going to work but due to some lazy cells that decide to over run my body, i stayed home instead. When i woke up, my parents wasn't at home. My dad goes to work as usual and my mum went out to stock up some groceries for my sick aunt. She is not staying at my house anymore because she feels that she is in a much stable condition and she felt guilt stricken staying with us :X

Anyway, that isn't the main issue i'm talking about. The thing is when both my parents are out, i have to be responsible for my lunch and the household chores. Instead of buying lunch which i think its a waste of money and unhealthy, i made my own lunch- FRIED RICE :D hehehehe.

I used to learn how to make fried rice from my mum and had an experience of cooking a soggy fried rice once and today is my second tryout. Surprisingly, it turns out very nice... Tasty, aromatic and simply appetizing. I'm not boasting about it and i have evidence :D seee....

Hungry already right??? hehehe!

After making myself lunch, i devoted my day to clean up the house. Mop the floor, clean my room, fold clothes.. Omg, i just feel like i'm an ideal househusband! :D

After that, i went online with baby! haha~ We had a funny and wonderful webcam session and i capture quite a lot of funny scenes. She went to cut her hair to bangs and she looks like a nerd now :D OMG!!!!! I have a nerdy and cute gf.. ;P

This is her after her haircut.. She cut it herself! :)

Alright, got to go and sleep because i have to work at 0945. Need to rest to regain my energy tomorrow for class at Northlight School. Update soon :D

Recent Updates...

2010-08-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

Recently, i found myself a job at Northlight School. I'm working as an assistant for a video production class. Its an interesting job where i get to meet cute but mischievous students and learn about the fundamentals of video production at the same time. There is a sense of satisfaction when you see the students listen to you and bond with you. This is the main motivation that pushes me to work harder other than the awesome salary. :D

Its exactly 14 days before my enlistment and i really miss my girlfriend, so i have been meeting her whenever i have the time. Just last Saturday, it was her grandpa's birthday and i was invited to attend. I was so excited as this is the first time meeting Sengie's relatives and i felt really anxious for fear that i'm unable to leave a good impression.

The funny thing was when i reached there and wished Sengie's grandpa, he said : " 小朋友你好！". So CUTE　LA!!! :) Her grandpa has a very cute and cheerful personality and he loves Chinese history or any thing that is related to Chinese. Her relatives are welcoming too! :D This is the first step and i'm elated because i sort of know her relatives a bit. It's like a sense of assurance to me!

Two days ago which was Monday, i went to Sengie's house for lunch. Instead of buying back to her house, she volunteered to cook! :) Butttttttt.... maggie meee LOL! :P So i brought two eggs, a plastic full of vege and some vegetarian mock meat ;) Although it was a simple meal, i thought it was fantastic one because its blissful to be able to eat her cooking and it was simply delicious and heart warming. Do you know you are the only gf who cooked for me? hehe! (Y)

Baby's exam is around the corner and it falls on the day i enlist :( So, to be able to meet her and having the time for her to prepare for her papers, i accompany her to study at Macs. Sweet right? :D But i'm getting fat cause of the McFlurry :(

See you tomorrow before i go work at kopitiam :) LOVE YOU!

Nothing beats with you around ♥

YEA and more YEAAAAAAA

2010-08-20T21:30:00.000-07:00

Happy, happy and happy. I'm feeling just that except for the fact that some idiots ruin part of it. But still, i'm happy.

Happy that in just a few more hours, i will be joining Sengie's family to celebrate her grandpa's birthday! Awesome.. Totally. But i'm a little bit anxious about what is going to happen later on.

Alright! I can't wait.. shall go prepare folks. WOHOOO~

If i have the ability to know what is in your mind.

2010-08-18T00:29:00.000-07:00

I am just so impatient to know. Figuring hard to know what went wrong to make the best out of it.

I am stress. I really don't know how to handle when you are like that. To me, you were once cooped in a built up walls around you and you are prone to hiding your sorrows all by yourself.

But i never gave up or have any sort of intentions like that. You are the best things in my life and i embrace every moment of this love, with you or not. I just want you to know that i am your shelter, and will always be.

I'm here.

If only happier moments could last longer

2010-08-15T06:47:00.000-07:00

A final retreat to Genting Highlands before my enlistment and i just came back recently. A very happy 4D3N there and i missed every bit of the moment there! Went down to KL Sentral Imbi to do some shopping during the two days and was quite fruitful.

In fact from Genting to KL, its pretty easy. Just take a cable car (Skyway) to the mid mountain where the bus station then take a bus from there to KL. The entire journey takes around 1 hour. I used to shop once at KL Times Square with the ZEEs so i don't seem to feel lost at all. But the place has changed a lot. The sky tram is developed and traffic is much more efficient than i thought!

However, happy moments don't last and i start to miss every bit of it already :X

Genting apart... I just went to consult a TCM doctor due to my clicking shoulder joints. This injury was probably due to the accident i had in Snow City when i slipped and fell on my butt resulting in a outward on my ribs. Then, it started to get worst and now my shoulder can't really move as swift as before.

So now i have a stupid bandage...

It was kind of my teacher who advised me to go for swimming sessions to allow my shoulder injury to recuperate. I guess i'm gonna heed his advise. I can heal my injury and prepare for NS. ;) Hope i have a speedy recovery for my enlistment date is approaching :X

Bithday Celebraion with chilhood brothers!

2010-08-09T10:07:00.000-07:00

It was great to have a gathering with my childhood brothers- Brian and Feng Yuan! We promised to pay for each other birthday and today was my turn. But of course, i don't crave for that, but meeting up with them and talk about the good old days was really a rare opportunity and i simply enjoyed it.

So, we went to a vegetarian restaurant situated at Bugis for dinner. It is a Japanese-style interior serving vegetarian Japanese cuisine. It is authentic and has a great ambiance, and with good food, the place is definitely the place to be. We had a mini steamboat shared among the three of us, and we ordered a vegetarian unagi rice set there after because we were still not full! (Y)

Thank you for your treat today! :) Love you brothers!

About a few more hours, i am leaving Singapore for Genting with my gf :D Excited, excited and very excited. Other than excited, nothing can describe how i feel now. I need to cach my sleep but i wonder i can sleep :X Alright, got to go folks! Bon Voyage! :)

Birthday Celebration Part 2!

2010-08-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

Bright early morning and my baby text me! She was supposed to reach my house at 11am, but she hasn't reach by then so i continue to sleep. She was telling me to take my time for she is still waiting for bus, an "imaginary" bus :S. Never did i realised that she came into my room and gave me a huge surprise. My first reaction was like... WTF?

All thanks to my dear brother who liaised with her yesterday night to make this surprise came to real. This wasn't the end of the surprise! She came with a big box in her hand, a homemade birthday cake done by her! How sweet of her right? :) She has been lying to me that she is buying a cake from the icing shop and she spent her day at her mum's shop packing her store but in fact, she went to her cousin's house to bake this cake for me! Touched! :) (*This is the only occasion that you can lie to me hor :D )

Nice right? Where to find such a good gf? :)

The cake has elements of surprise too! look at the rainbow slabs! Hard work baby! Thank you :)

The birthday song hasn;t been sung but look at me :X HUNGRYYY

Thank you dear! ♥

That's my brother :D

If you wonder who is that girl beside me, that's my cousin :)

The moment i'm waiting for... EAT THE CAKE! NICE :D

Right after that, my gf and i headed to Rivervale Mall to buy mats for our "sun-baked" session at Sentosa!!! Lucky we wasn't too late to meet the sun. Now my sweet gf is experiencing sun burnt and i'm satisfied with my tanned body now :) These are some of the photos taken there:

hehe! I'm sweating, damn hot!

Baby with her trademark twist :)

i didn't know you took this while i was tanning! Cheeky sia!

Sweet! (Y)

After a day of fun, we headed back to my house and we caught Aftershock at Century Square. Sengie's mum treat me to that show. A very sad show that speaks the life of a broken up family after a detrimental earthquake at Tang Shan, China. A good show that sets our mind thinking, and that we aren't gonna live in bliss and safety all the time. The morale of the movie is not to take things for granted and never treat your love ones for granted!

All in all, thank you baby for the effort that make my birthday a memorable one! I love you and forever!

祝我生日快乐 2010

2010-08-07T10:24:00.000-07:00

I am born on the date 08/08/1990 and today i'm officially 20 years old! People say once you hit the age of 20, very soon you will reach your thirties.

Of course, I am not looking forward to that but 20 is a new start. Its the beginning of a whole new journey of changes and learning. Like all other men in Singapore, i am going to be enlisted on the 7 of September! A change in my civilian lifestyle to a much more routine and discipline one. I can no longer meet my family, friends and even my gf, so its a very big step.

Alright, sad stuff aside. I had a great birthday eve celebration with my baby! :D She reserved the seatings at Kuishinbo like weeks ago. The buffet was really awesome i swear, especially eating with my special someone! I ate so much to the point that my stomach was so damn bloated. But gain vs pain, i think its worthwhile! :D

I must say my gf is great at art and craft. She done up a birthday card for me, and i must say its beyond my expectations! The crafting of words, the cutting of the designs, drawing, the 3D exploded images... One word to describe- NICE! The moment i received it and open up, WOW! :D

See See...

After the filling buffet, we went to the arcade to play the basketball machine! So fun you know? Haven had so much fun lately and i guess it was the first time she saw me shooting hoops :) Then we went to watch the movie- Salt. Not really fantastic in a way cause i expected more effects and fighting scenes and the ending was quite bad. :X I guess there will be a sequel movie next season.

After that, we headed to the harmony park at Dhoby Ghaut for some heart to heart talk. Awesome day and tml we are going Sentosa :D Looking forward totally! Thank you dear ♥

Here are some photos taken today:

Like repetition and hits your heart

2010-08-03T09:47:00.000-07:00

Feeling sorry is one issue. Doing it and make a change is another. They are two different things that we are talking about here.

Do it once, twice, thrice.. and even more.. disappointed!

On the 28th of every month

2010-07-27T10:07:00.000-07:00

So what's going on, on the 28th of every month? Every couple has a special day of ever month too! :)

HAPPY 8th MONTH OF ANNIVERSARY BABY! :)

Like all relationships, we have been through tough times. We quarreled over trivial issues, complexity of differences when handling things, ambiguity... But what makes us different in my own opinion is that we are willing to change for the better and whatever we do, we think of each other's perspectives. We compromise and we do whatever it takes to keep us bonded together.

I mean this relationship makes me grow and mature to be a better man. At least someone reliable that my gf can rely on. I guess its the faith that we have! Of course, thank god for watching over us.

I am certain we are meant for each other. I do not need to prove to anyone else because by seeing is believing. I remembered how much people were so negative about how far we will go, but to be honest, your wimpy comments doesn't really spurs anything:)

I love you :)

Happy Birthday 大姨！

2010-07-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

Basically, it was my aunt's birthday today! So, i went to Sengie's house to help her with her outfit. I mean the occasion isn't very formal so i told her to wear kinda casual. She was so nervous about today because it is the first time interacting with my extended family. After which, we went for our late lunch around 5 plus? How awesome was that? :x

After lunch, we headed back to our house first and then we took my fifth aunt's transport to the venue. When we reached there, everyone was asking if she was my gf. But i mean it is pretty obvious, if not she wouldn't be here. LOL! So, we are considered kinda official? :)

Its was really a great get together session because we haven't been meeting up ever since my grandma passed away. Not to missed, my 大姨's daughter's baby boy, Ethan! He is just so cute and has chubby cheeks as smooth as baby butt. Or i should say soft and subtle cheeks like what Sengie has! :D So CUTEEEEEE and i wished i could bring him back home. OMG!

Look at Ethan! He seems to enjoy sitting on my stomach :D

He is camera shy.. awwwww

I think i make a good daddy! hahahaha!

He is so chubby! You get what i mean by "cheeks like Sengie" :)

Ultimately, today was a good day. Especially when my family knows about Sengie. Other than that, we had a heart to heart talk when i sent her back home. Its been so long since we did that due to our commitments. After all, we had been through so much and its going 8 months soon! Thank god and thank her for the love! :D

Tee hee! :)

Training match against NTU

2010-07-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

Yes i know, I have graduated from Temasek Polytechnic (TP)! But still, i am still joining the TP hockey squad for training. Today was a friendly match against the Nanyang Technological University (NTU) at the CCAB.

I still remembered when i was still in the squad, my team and i used to travel from school to NTU for training. The trip there is very far but still, the hockey squad is very bonded. I miss this kinda feeling, like a sense of belonging and today, i found it back again!

Talking about the game, TP put up a strong fight against our opponent. TP has emerged much stronger and they gain the match composure without much of a effort. Clemence, the rising star of TP finds the net in the first half and followed by Farid with a deflection into the net!

I am very satisfied with my performance with the fact that i have not played in any hockey matches since last POLITE competition. I managed to cut of the opponent's line of pass and delivered good assist for the forwards to attempt scoring. Today i was hoping to get back my match fitness for this Saturday's debut match against ORA. I swear i can't wait to play and put up a good fight!

Anyway its my Aunt's birthday tomorrow and she is holding a buffet at her house! She invited me and my gf there. So, meaning i'm meeting my cute gf tml! Can't wait! :D

Alright, shall update more! I'm tired after the match today. Good night folks :D

Rain keeps falling... ...

2010-07-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

I tried too hard and its giving so much stress to the people around me. I just thought i should let go and let them do the things on their own will. I am over worrying, and would just think of the consequence laid behind and wanted to warn of any signs of danger, but i guess its all too much and extra.

I care in a different manner but it was being read otherwise. So tell me what can i do more? I wanna get involve and help but was pushed away. Dejected. I am never a better candidate to stand up for you and so who would? best still, you don't need anyone to help, so what's the point of me here?

I am a very harsh person who sucks at communication and consoling. I do things the harder way, also my fault? Tell me about it! I'm just so serious. I'm quite speechless until someone could just enlightened me on what to do next.

Push me away because i'm just not up to the mark. Its really painful!

When Ryan is sick!

2010-07-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

Aches all over, headaches like rock pounding my brain, cold hands and feet, fever, sore throat... ... I haven't fall sick for quite some time when sick spell hit me yesterday, i felt like dying! Its tormenting to feel weak inside out.

I met up with baby for lunch in school yesterday and was feeling very sick already. I think i made her worried because she has never seen me so sick and pale before. After lunch, i decided to take a cab back home for i couldn't take long bus rides. I just want to reach home and rest as fast as i could.

Then my mum brought me to a Chinese practitioner for consultation. The doctor said my body is very heaty and it has been accumulated very long. Maybe this explains why i feel like dying. Now i am drinking some powdered medicine every 3 hours, 4 times per day! The bitterness is owned! But what to do?

Blame it on myself for not sleeping early, and with the "help" of the weird weather nowadays, probably that's why! I think many people are falling sick. I was just browsing my Facebook friends' status, 5 of my friends are having the same symptoms as me! Take care, drink more water and rest early. I know how it feels like. Totally!

Life is Unpredictable.

2010-07-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

In fact there is nothing much happening to blog about. That's why i have not been blogging. But something happened recently that struck me real hard! It seems like a wake up call that anything can happen so much so that you cannot even expect.

My aunt was diagnosed with cancer. A mishap but yes, it happened!

My aunt really dotes on me. I can still remember vividly, when my brother and i had to stay at her house whenever my mum is out to run some errand. At that time, my brother and i were still young and we were extremely mischievous. We would try all means to agitate our aunt to make her angry and the angrier she got, the happier we were because we just felt that her angry expression is funny. We always ended up being caned.

Putting aside her beatings and scoldings, i still feel she cares a lot for me. I still remember how happy she was when i visit her at her house. She will prepare a table of sumptuous food and awaits me for dinner together. She will keep asking me to “多吃” (Eat more) and fill up my plates without fail. She is a great cook! She used to work in a vegetarian store as a head chef and after so many years, her culinary skills is still very well maintained.

Even until recently, when i introduced my girlfriend to her, she felt so pleased that i would update her about my life and wanting her to know my girlfriend in advance. Not to mentioned, she cook a table full of vegetarian dishes again!

Now that she is sick, i feel so helpless. The least i could do is to encourage her and spur her on! As she stays in my house, the sight of seeing her so weak and skinny makes me feel sadder.

The day before her chemotherapy, she asked me to seat beside her and she told me that she is afraid that she can't be so close to me anymore. I hugged her, and she teared. I could feel her fear totally, the fear of being weak and death. I just wished i could help her in anyway to relieve those unpleasant feelings.

Dear god, and if you could just hear me, please oversee my aunt's condition and may she get over this tough time. I know the power of god and let her have a speedy recovery. God bless.

2010-06-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

"Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future." Lewis B. Smedes quotes.

This is interesting quote i got it from some website and i find it very true. Some things that we did in a moment of folly cannot be undone and the amount of pain inflicted is beyond what we expect. Even if the wrong doings are not meant to be intentional but it's still wrong. It teaches me one thing and i really got to remind myself. Love and cherish the ones around you. Your family, friends, your love partner... anyone. Because some things in life, there are no turning back.

Like Finally! Put an End to Worrying.

2010-06-18T09:54:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, a day i have been looking for weeks! You never know the kind of torment. Sometimes feeling like this is not as if i can control but i really tried my best. Probably, its going to get better.

Today is the end of my work at Changi Expo. I was working as a shuttle bus coordinator since Tuesday and i should say the job scope is very easy. All i did was to direct the exhibitors and other visitors to the respective buses and the fact that they were already lined up according to the berth bus number makes my job even easier.

So, the rest of the time is free time. I'm free to roam about in the exhibition hall and slack in the Organiser's Office's pantry. There is always good food and drinks there so there is no issue about hunger at all! What is even better is i got to make friends with 5 other friends and they are really fun to mingle with! We even exchanged contact at the end of the event! :)

Tomorrow i will be meeting baby! :)Shall update about tomorrow again! :) Good nite folks!

Miscellaneous Updates :)

2010-06-12T10:10:00.000-07:00

Today is a day full of blunder. I wonder what the heck is running in my brain that i am so careless and blur the entire day :(

First, i had a job training today at Changi Expo Hall 3 and guess what?!?! I nearly ended up at Suntec Convention. I happily took a train to Dhoby Ghaut and wanted to change to bus 14/16 to go Suntec. In the end, i realise i went to the wrong place and it cost me 15 bucks to travel back to Expo via cab! FML...

Then, i went to meet my gf at Bedok MRT platform before we head to watch movie. Guess what, i actually took the other side of the platform to Simei instead. I guess im aging and my memory is failing big time! HOW???

Today i am happy :) We had dinner at Swensens and i simply love the desert- Walnut Rocky Road.

Walnut Rocky Road on Sizzling Skillet

Its a chocolate walnut pie topped with creamy chocolate ice-cream on the sizzling skillet. The taste and aesthetic view of the desert is further enhanced when butterscotch and mushmallows are poured over it. Its just satisfy your sweet tooth and every bite just savours in your mouth! Fantastically tasty and till now, i could still remember the texture and taste. We took some silly photos at Swensens:

I think she is fit to be the spokesperson for Swenson's. Agree?

I will be the next choice after her :)

YUMMY:D
Look how satisfied she was eating the desert...

Then we went on to watch movie- Karate Kid. It's about this 12 year old kid, Dre Parker from Detroit who then moved to China with his mum due to work related reasons. He was faced with the major rejection due to cultural difference and was bullied by a group of Chinese boys who are Kungfu-trained. Parker was fortunate to meet a maintenance guy whom people address him as Mr Han (Jackie Chan) and he imparted the knowledge and skills of Wushu to Parker.... I shan't continue further because its gonna spoil the mood of people who have yet to watch this movie! This movie is hilarious and it really amplifies and true meaning of friendship, Wushu and one's character upbringing.

This movie is so popular that tickets of early timings were already sold out. Both Tampines Mall and Century Square. It's a pain to walk to and fro from TM to CS i swear. But for the sake of the movie, it is worthwhile. I would rate the movie 8/10. Do catch it if you have the time :)

Life as good as taking a break

2010-06-09T09:13:00.000-07:00

I met up with Kai Xuan today at a pet shop?!?! Yea you wonder why.. haha! She is taking over her friend as a pet shop owner cause her friend is away for a week! How cool is that to have a pet shop like your own the whole damn day huh? :D

That pet shop is awesome. There are many pet food and whatever you want or i should say your pet wants, they have it there! The shop even has a grooming area for dog hair trimming, veterinarian care and even pet care service! NICE!

There are no pets there except for 2 fat hamsters! When i say fat they are really big, like a medium-sized street rat! I guess the owner feed them lots of hamster food! See see:

I think the hamster knows i'm taking a photo of him. So he actually came nearer to the lens of my camera!

So cute! i wish own one. The life as an animal can be quite carefree. Their life revolves around eat, sleep and reproduce generally! I don't know if they have problems which i suppose their only fear is their predator. If i were given a choice i would want to be one of them for a while. Just awhile to tide through a little tough times here and there.

If only i could...

Live Updates!!!

2010-06-05T09:41:00.000-07:00

Kindergarten Link:
If you have read my previous post, i mentioned about my work at the Teacher's Network for their annual staff conference as their mascot. Together with two of my friends, we had so much fun during and after the performance. We danced and grooved to the beat with our costumes and giggled like crazy! But of course, the rehearsals and other miscellaneous work are tough. However, it is all worth it because the pay is good. LOL! Here are some photos:

That's us on the stage performance! HIPPY, HAPPY and HOPPY :D

The three mascots and my D&T Teacher :D So much like a reunion

Our work was so relaxed that we asked our D&T Teacher to help us take a photo :) Thank You Mrs Chern!

We have three dedicated females who wanna be in the mascots costumes, so the three of us took a photo with them :)

hehe! That's my mascot. SMILE!

Our replicas! CUTE RIGHT? :)

During the conference, it was my teacher's birthday too :) Happy Birthday!

Jia Quan and Aifen Wedding @ Hyatt Hotel:
Today is a special day for the newly weds :) I reached Hyatt at 1 o'clock and started preparing. I was the video man for the couple during the solemnisation and i nearly had a shoulder spasm because i had to hold the camcorder at a certain position and couldn't mjove for fear that the image may blur and gets too jerky.

The wedding matrimony was not as solemn as the previous weddings i have witnessed. The solemniser was humorous and did made the anxious couple a little laughter to make them less nervous. As i managed to witness the process of the solemnization, i learnt that being able to get together is heaven's will, it is a couple's creation by the power of god. I was enlightened when i heard this and i know who i want to spent the rest of my life with.

Marriage is a lifetime commitment. No matter what obstacles come in the way, it does not break them apart. No one has has the power to snatch any one of us away as long as we stay faithful. I believe and i have faith in us.

I am thankful that i had the chance to be the video man for the solemnization. In my mind, i was imagining how our wedding will be like in the future. It may sound silly, but deep down i want to fulfill this so badly. You know who i am referring to and i know you will smile when you read this. I make sure you smile even more when the very day turns to reality!

PS: I LOVE YOU!

Fun @ Work :)

2010-06-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

I started working since yesterday at the Teacher's Network and today is my second day of work :) It is a temporary job and my job scope is to prepare and rehearse for this Friday's kindergarten event. Guess what? I'M THE MASCOT!!!! There are three mascots and they are namely HIPPY, HAPPY and HOPPY :D

This is how it looks like! And Yew Chye is inside :)

Me and HIPY :)

Edward and HIPPY :D

Apart from rehearsing our dance moves, we have loads of time to walk around and rest. But today, we had to run errands for the staff there because we can't stay in the office and do nothing, moreover we are paid $9 per hour. However, we still find it an easy job because the things we did are either too simple or it does not requires much labour. AWESOME!

After work, i headed down to meet baby for dinner! :) At least there is something good to look forward to after work. We shopped around Tampines 1, Century Square, Tampines Mall like we always do.

I have been looking for a pair of slippers but to no avail! It is either no size because my feet is too big, or the sole is slippery which doesn't worth the buy :( DAMN IT. The only pair we saw which caught our attention was this pair of blue slippers from Puma. It has contrasting colours, blue prints with red straps and blue is my favourite colour!!! It only cost $17.50, so should i buy? Anyone gonna split cost or buy for me? LOL!

Then after which, we went home separately. I decided to go to the fitness corner to do some pull-ups and sit-ups. I started doing them and on my third sets of sit-ups, this cat with fur similar to the white tiger, stealthily walked towards me. The next thing it does was to climb onto my leg and started rolling in front of me, meowing away. It doesn't seem to be afraid of me and keep coming near me. I thought it was quite adorable and took a few photos:

The cat treated my wallet as its pillow! SO CUTE :)

I am still thinking of that Slippers from PUMA! :(

女人永远也不知道男人为什么要学会坚强

2010-05-31T08:35:00.000-07:00

This is sent by my friend. I think it really tells what i always feel inside. Thanks friend! :)

So what's up today...

2010-05-30T08:52:00.000-07:00

A recap of what i did today. I went to the gym @ Tampines with Yong Kee in the morning. Supposedly, i had to meet him at 10am, but i overslept. Coupled with the sudden heavy downpour, i reached at 10:20am. Sorry to let him waited for so long.

Gym session was short but sweet since i had a shoulder workout yesterday at the school gym. Felt the blood gushing through my arms but i still feel i'm kinda weak. I need to push harder and up weights!

Then, YK anjd i went to meet up with Sengie at the airport (T2 Macdonalds). I helped her to recap lei :) I'm so wonderful right? ^^ Then headed to YK's house to accompany his dogs- Chester and Junior! (Or play with his dogs! LOL!) They are so welcoming that once they hear our footsteps, they came barking and wagged their tails. When the door is opened, they rushed out and start jumping with joy. You will definitely love them when you first see them! (Y)

Sometimes, having a dog is always better than having friends. Dogs are loyal to their owner, but friends come and go. I'm not making a stand here that i don't need friends. Everyone need friends, just that some friends come and go and close friends are really difficult to find.

We are living in a very practical world and everything revolves around money, status, gains... These makes people selfish, protective, attracting attention, backstabbing each other so on and so forth. I have come to realise that this is part and parcel of life and it is inevitable!

I'm lucky to have my family, my girlfriend, my brothers (Yuan and Da) and other peers who are constantly reminding me and support me along. I'm not making my last note, but just something that came across my mind and worth pondering about. Most importantly, never let them down and support them as they have already contribute so much for you.

To baby: Good luck for your tests :) ILY!

What's next after graduation!

2010-05-28T10:07:00.000-07:00

You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 7th Sept 2010 at 08:30AM to Home Team Academy

I remembered i was on my way back home from work and my cellphone rang...

"Boy ah! The CMPB sent letter to you already....You kena Police." My mum spoke to me in Chinese dialect.

I was crazily happy because i always wish to be posted to the Home Team Academy, probably under my dad's strong influence since he is a CID himself. So, this is like a dream come true for me. Previously i received a letter from CMPB stating that i had to go for a interview at the Sembawang Naval Base- Naval Diving Unit (NDU). I was quite upset because the tendency of getting into that unit is very high and if i was rejected for the interview, i would most likely end up in commando.

I got my gf so worried with the kind of crazy trainings i have to undergo if i were to be posted to NDU. For myself, i'm just afraid that i have lesser time spent with my gf. I guess lady luck is on my side, as i got into something i really want. i am going to strive for the best in there for sure, be the fittest, strongest and outstand the rest! This shall be the next big thing after my graduation! :D

It's Officially Last Day of School- GRADUATION

2010-05-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

Hooray! I have successfully graduated from diploma in Hospitality and Tourism Management :D It is the last day of polytechnic life, but its the beginning of new challenges and obstacles ahead.

Frankly speaking, i do not know what i am going to pursue for my university education. There are so many choices that sometimes i don't know what is best for me and whether i have taken the right route. Many a times, we are only given one chance and if we screw it, we are done for! Especially Singapore adopts the meritocratic approach where only the elite group of people will survive :x

I have to start thinking what are my goals and objectives in life! :X Well, i was rather happy that my parents came down for my graduation ceremony despite their tight schedule. My dad got to work and he left as soon as the ceremony ended. Here are some interesting photos taken today with my parents and peers:

Happy Graduation 2010 :D

只想握你的手,,, ,,,

2010-05-18T10:21:00.000-07:00

谁确定握紧了，就代表拥有？

谁预料放手后，就会有自由？

我只想握紧你的手，表示最单纯的温柔，因为这胜过千万个寒暄问候。
十指紧扣，牵着你度过煎熬... ...

Up Lorry Liao La !!!

2010-05-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

My singing competition is around the corner and i guess i'm pretty much in a deep shit! I chose a duet and i think i'm having a bad time trying to hit the pitch!

I still remembered how Wei Dong and i "owned" singers in pubs singing this duet, which eventually won us cheers and applause. Good old days!

How now, brown cow? :(

Our pictures tell it all...

2010-05-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

My day was well-spent with Sengie today. I accompanied her to Toni and Guy @ Bugis for her hair makeover todat. In fact, she was the hair model for a hair tutorial taking place in a studio in which a haircut demo was done on her to educate hairstylists-to-be from India on hair styling techniques. Some may think hair stylist is a easy job, but if you have been through the hair tutorial, hair styling is actually a form of art. Something of a higher level than just cutting hair! There were some hairstyling terms that i never came across in my life. CHIM!

This is how she looks like after her hair was curled! NICE!

After her haircut, we headed to the Bugis National Library Board as Sengie planned to study. I guessed its the tests and assignments "season" for polytechnic students and sadly, there wasn't any seats in the study room. So, we decided to study at Kallang Leisure Park instead because crowds are lesser even during weekends. In the end, we settled down at The Coffee Bean @ Kallang Leisure Park.

While Sengie was revising for her upcoming tests, i was watching some random videos on Youtube. At first i was watching some UFC mix martial arts fights scene, then i went on to watch "The Three Amigos Outrageous". Three of them have that ability to make the crowd laugh out their lungs with racism jokes or whatever jokes they can come up with! Thumbs up!!! Just go ahead with this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Z4KbOWU0xo&feature=related and have fun! :)

When she got bored and decided to take a break, i became her target to keep her entertained! :( She took lots of unglam photos of me...

This was taken while i was very much engross with the UFC mix martial arts fighting on Youtube.

This was the "smile-smile" expression when i was aware that she is taking photos of me!

I wonder what kind of expression that was. Facial spasm more like it!

Sengie said this was cute! haha!

After her grueling revision, we decided to catch a movie at Suntec. While waiting for the arrival of our bus, we took quite a few silly photos too!

We watched this movie called "The Last Song". This is a movie about a rebellious teenage girl (Milley Cyrus) who was forced to stay with her estranged dad during her summer vacation, who would rather stay in her hometown, New York City. Her dad tried to reconcile their hostile relationship through a common interest-music. During this short vacation, this rebellious teenager met with many incidents that changed her perspectives towards life and her dad. Relationship, love, life and death etc.. This is definitely a meaningful movie that leaves one to ponder about our life. I would rate it 4/5 stars! *Sengie was tearing like mad :X

Then lastly, dinner at Macs! :D We had a long talk about our past and made some confessions while eating. We are going on a six month relationship soon!!! :D I cherish this love ever more~ Today is an awesome day with fun, laughter, pictures... HAHA! Its been so long since we took photos :) ILY baby~

Needs and Wants!

2010-05-09T10:32:00.000-07:00

I want a tan body again... i want to play beach volleyball again! I miss the sun, the water, and volleyball.. :( I just want to have as much fun as possible before i'm enlisted! In fact there are so much things i want to do and i need to do.

I have my singing competition on the 20th May @ Kovan Shopping Mall and best thing is i'm still pondering as to which song to sing. I have found one but is unsure if that choice of song is going to bring me any further. Hope you guys can be there to support! :D

I need to re-take my NAPHA test! I want to have a tone body! I want to go to the beach! I need to earn and save up more money! See, there are so many needs and wants i need to fulfill. :X

One thing for sure, i need you. *Cannot miss out, if not will be killed :P We have been busy and have lesser times together. At least we meet up quite a lot. Lesser times for lovey dovey stuff but i still enjoy being with you.

I just realised Sengie has got something for cats. You know something? Bedok is a cat kingdom where cats rule and you can't see as many cats romping the streets in any parts of Singapore as compared to bedok. Everytime i see how Sengie interacts with the stray cats in her neighbourhood, cats just love it. They will follow us or i should say the cats follow her specifically when i'm beside her. Sengie knows the cats "G-spot" too! How interesting can that be?

Anyway, 6 months soon! hahaa~ So excited! Do you baby? :D

Screwed-up!

2010-05-08T00:30:00.000-07:00

The feeling of accomplishing something and losing it cause of a stupid mistake just makes me goes sian! All the efforts just went down the fucking drain! Darn.. Fuck life~

When you have a girlfriend like this...

2010-04-30T10:19:00.000-07:00

When you have a girlfriend...

- who has soft and bubbly cheek

- with pleasant disposition...

- who gives you moral support in the back scene...

- who kisses you at every stop light...

- which makes my day...

- who is near to perfection...

I will hold her hands till the end and never let go :)

If you realised why I hug you tightly all the time...

2010-04-29T11:59:00.000-07:00

Cherish this love ever more

2010-04-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

Happy fifth month to my dearest baby and more to come! :) We have travelled quite far and overcome many problems together and i'm thankful that i have your support along the way. Let's hold on!

In the morning, i head down to the gym @ TP with Jing Quan. Gym session was great and my body is aching most of the time ever since. All thanks to Jing Quan and i'm getting fitter for NS. :D Then we had lunch together with my gf at some vegetarian restaurant in Tampines. We had so much talking and laughter!

Then she went to my house, waited for me to get ready and we went for a movie- Ip Man 2! This sequel movie is totally awesome that you wouldn't want to miss, even if you didn't get to watch its first movie. The scene where Ip Man fought his way against gangs and gangs of people armed with weapons makes me goes WOW!

There was also a scene where the conflicts between the Chinese and the Westerners sparked off when a western boxer discriminated the Chinese martial arts which let to a mega showdown between Ip Man the boxing champ. The good always triumph over the baddies and Ip Man honoured the Chinese community and speak good for the chinese martial arts. Sengie and I was so caught up with the fighting scene that we held each others hand so tightly cause the show was so intense.

Through this movie, i learnt that all humans are equal. There is no differentiation between us and we should not discriminate anyone under whatever circumstances.

After which, we headed to Pizza Hut for dinner. :) We were so full that our stomach was protruding out by a bit! :P But we had took some form of exercise to compensate the sinful food cravings we had. WE WALKED A LONG DISTANCE! :D We have not been walking long distance and had heart to heart talks already and we were thankful that we had this opportunity today. Singing, talking, laughter...

"I gotta feeling.. WOHOOO~~~ that today starts well and ends good!" I love you baby! ♥

A whole new makeover :D

2010-04-24T10:06:00.000-07:00

COME AND SEE MY BLOG! :D I love this new blog skin to the max! God knows why i had the sudden intention to makeover my blog this afternoon. Probably i'm too bored at home and i have nothing better to do.

While finding some suitable skins for my blog, i realised that i don't know how to do the html editing and templates altering and so, i got baby to help me out. This is her art work and i swear i have more motivation to blog since baby put in so much effort into doing this up! SWEET~

I shall present to you my newly refurbished blog. ENJOY! Credits to you my dear :D

2010-04-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

Poor bee's on his way back from work now. And since I'm quite nua-ish and refuse to go and bathe again, I shall come and disturb.

Okay, end of disturbing. He finally figured I haven't bathed and is now cui-ing me to. Goodbye! :D

A day with many many interesting events!

2010-04-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

I woke up so early in the morning in preparation for my 9:00am interview at Tanjiong Pagar. I was rushing to Seng Kang MRT station via the LRT and i thought i managed to catch a train before its door closes. In the end, i managed to get a space in the train cabin.

I was so relieved that I could possibly reach the place in time and then, something bad occurred! More and more commuters came streaming into the MRT platform and people started to squeeze their way into the train. The train door just couldn't close. Passengers in the train are waiting in desperation hoping that the train might start moving but it didn't. Well, you can all imagine how stuffy the entire train cabin is. Commuters who came late and couldn't squeeze into the "faulty" train, waited outside at the train platform. The entire train station was filled with people.

Morning rush hour and such things really happened at the wrong time! People are cursing and swearing, hoping that the train might just move. Until, the train operator made an announcement that the train is faulty and will not be in operation. I actually took two photos to show how chaotic the situation was. I called baby to tell her that too! INTERESTING RIGHT?

Look at how packed the escalator is. Bad evacuation system by the Transit Operators

Commuters who are still waiting for the train to be back in operation!

In the end, my interview was called off because i have to be home between 11am till 1pm because the Singtel personnel came to my house to install the MIO TV as well as the Wireless modem! I'm using wireless now, and one word to describe- FAST! No more lagging while loading web pages (Y)

After which, i went to school to find baby for lunch. It was also TP's CCA Recruitment Day, so i went down to have some fun at the hockey booth. I didn't know Yong Kee and Philo were that good in hockey, and they picked up pretty fast lei! Then Jin Xue came to join us and had lots of laughter. I can't forget how Yong Kee reacted to a flying ball flicked by Sengie. EPIC!

Then Yong Kee, Jinj Xue, Hui Qing and us went for dinner. Sengie was constantly making fun of Yong Kee and i understand why he thinks Sengie is irritating. But i still love her as much, don't know why lei.. LOL! After dinner, Yong Kee came up with the idea of playing snooker at Safra Tampines. Its been so long since i went to a snooker parlour, and my snooker skill decline :( Jin Xue is a good player so yong Kee and i decided to call him "Long-Ge". Shall call him that when i see him tomorrow in school :D

* I feel insecure and its my own problem. I got to change that.

Last Day...

2010-04-17T09:51:00.000-07:00

Today may be the last day of proper meet-up before baby goes back to her school. Sounds like i'm never gonna meet her again. :x Of course not, because i'm going back to school for gym sessions and meet her after her school or something. :(

We met up for lunch today at one. Then we headed to Century Square to print some photos because she wants me to buy a pin-up board to put up our lovely photos up there and hang it on the wall. So sweet isn't it? But i have to decorate them myself! :x HAHAHA!

I have been wanting to get a mirror and since i'm heading to Ikea, i just bought myself one! Guess how much does it cost? $9.90 folks!!!! :D The mirror is pretty long and able to see 3/4 of myself so it's definitely worth buying man! Next time i don't have to go to my mama's room just to use her mirror -.-

I have yet to mount the mirror on my wall because i have to get the 3M mounting tape which is adhesive enough to hold the weight of my mirror. Talking about mounting tapes just makes me mad! I actually bought 3 lousy mounting tapes from Giant (Opposite Ikea) which can't even hold my mirror. What's more, Sengie and i braved through the rain which eventually got us in a mess.

But we came across some funny people who decided to brave through the rain with us. Three young girls are running across the road with us and their slippers dropped off one by one and each one of them came running back to retrieve their slippers! Damn epic. (Y) LOL! Sengie and i were laughing like crazy~

After we have made our purchases, she came to my house for dinner. We had sushi and fruits for dinner! Healthy right?Sengie was telling me earlier on that she started to have cravings for my mama's sushi le! I shall do for her one day before i get enlisted :) PROMISE!!!

I came across this picture.. Does this boy looks familiar to you? :)

Ok, Now lets compare the above picture with this:

Just for your entertainment:) Bye bye! TEEHEE... ...

Red Lobster

2010-04-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

I have been craving for the sun, volleyball and the beach ever since i went with Sengie and her friends Jessie and Lena. The other time i went with them was not as good as today because we ended up "rain-tanning" :X

Today was great for the sun is scorching and i managed to tan myself thoroughly! That's why i am a red lobster now! My gf and I actually spammed the suntanning oil on our body like free sia. My childhood brothers (Yuan & Da), me and my gf went Sentosa together...

We played volleyball among ourselves until we decided to go to the court to try out the real game! People asked if we wanna challenge and we actually agreed. We are a group of noobs *other than my gf playing against some "experience" court volleyball players.

Initially we thought that they were good, but we as beginners actually put up a good fight. Fun and laughter all the way, especially the way how Yi Da start the ball makes us laugh non stop because he is just one epic fellow. (Y)

After a good game of volleyball, we headed to a cafe nearby to have some chilling ice cold beverages. We are god-damn thirsty and the worst thing to imagine is to wait for the waitress to serve our drinks. Finally, the waitress came and we sipped our drinks as if we haven't been drinking waters for weeks!

Then we bath and headed to Koufu @ Sentosa for our light dinner. The day was fun and awesome. A rare get together with my childhood friends and of course a great bonding session with my gf. She actually taught me how to play volleyball better! I LOVE IT~ I guess volleyball is my next sports i'm gonna explore!

My heart has been stolen by you

2010-04-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

Today is just continuos fun and laughter with baby! After my gym session with Jing Quan and Yuan, i headed down to Bedok to find her. Along the way, i was listening to some R&B Pop musics that i downloaded yesterday to keep me company. In fact I stayed up till about 5 am in the morning downloading songs, listening to songs because i just can't get to sleep. That's why i'm so tired today.

I have been looking forward to meet baby because she can't meet meet me that often anymore. So today was totally well planned and we had so much fun! So our journey goes like this: Ajisen for lunch @ Tampines Mall > bought movie tickets (Clash of the Titans) > Headed to Cotton On @ Pasir Ris to buy some T-shirts > Headed down to Bugis for random shopping and yoghurts > Back to Tampines for movie.

One of my favourite part of the day is eating yoghurt at BerryLite in Illuma!!! The frozen yoghurt are so appetizing that i had one mouth after another. (Y) Of course that's not the reason. The main reason is that we were taking lots of photos while eating-unglam photo shoots, weird faces, weird poses, and many many stupid stances. It was so cute!

We headed back to Tampines to catch our movie. We reached Tampines at around 7:30 pm when our movie starts at 8:30 pm. So we had light dinner at Carl's Junior to kill time. The movie was totally awesome. It's about how a demi-god (Perseus), leading a group of tough warriors to defeat the god of the underworld, Hades. I like the part that Perseus embarked on a fearsome journey to battle the demons, giant scorpions, Medusa, the kraken and ultimately the hades. Good movie to watch especially when i'm watching with her.

Baby, I LOVE YOU!

Forever and ever :D :D :D

Everything came toppling down

2010-04-06T12:19:00.000-07:00

I built a lego tower and it took me much effort to do it. Suddenly, someone came by and knock it accidentally. My lego tower was "demolished".

So, I have to reconstruct a new tower again. I did not complaint and i continue to built my next tallest towel, but again, it was knocked down. I need to re-built it again.

I need that confidence to re-built that tower again, if you know what i mean.

Crisis

2010-04-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

Every relationship faces crisis, waves and waves of it, which just keeps coming. Big waves or small waves.

Yes, it is no doubt that it makes one worry and fear because many things are ambiguous and no one knows what will happen next. But there is one important thing that makes one fearless and brave through these crude waves- Faith and Love.

Fret not baby, Im gonna stay with you, hold on to you and never make anyone of us falls apart. Even if we fall, we are going to be hand in hand, and climb up slowly. That's because faith and love pushes us to do so. Therefore, never loses faith and never forget that we are always by each other's side.

Ps, I Love You

* I had durian puffs after my dinner at home! Totally awesome especially after a long day at work. But i miss my dear dear. Hope to see her soon :(

Beeeeeee.... IMY so.

由不得你

2010-03-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

有些事真的由不得我去掌控。事事难预测，因为无人能确定未来将会发生什么事！人生就是如此的残酷，只能受着命运的摆步一个人沉受。

我很害怕失去因为现在拥有，并不保证永远都拥有。我只须要肯定，只须要安全感就很满足了。我正在迷惑，有谁能替我解开？

也许没有人能体会我的心情。。。　。。。

TP Graduation Night

2010-03-27T03:59:00.000-07:00

A night that TP graduates comes together to celebrate the joy of graduation. I was so happy to meet up with people from the ZEE. It's has been a long time since i talked to them even online and this Dinner and Dance has allowed me to do some catching up with them. Most importantly, Sengie was my partner of the night! She was gorgeous, definitely jaw-dropping. *Did i exaggerate?? :P

Well, the theme was Galardeon, which means a neon theme. Sengie and i did not really dress in accordance to the theme, or in fact many people who attended the dinner did not dress in neon outfit. But I think we look pretty decent! We had a eight course meal and the food was splendid.

Here were some photos taken on that day:

My D&D partner...Isn't she pretty that day? :D

This was taken right after our toilet break!

Our dressing wasn't very neon actually "? I'm dressing super casual

I think this is super cute! EPIC~

Me and Amanda with her "smile smile" face

Look at Hui Min.. I think she has the most daring dress sense ever~

When three jokers come together, we never fail to break into laughter!

Happy Reunion!!!

NUDGE!!!

2010-03-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

NUDGE~~~ It's been 24 days straight not updating my blog! * The latest blog entry was not by me but you know who once you read it! She is my candy, sweetest candy. So here i am bringing to you my latest updates! :D

There are a couple of new resolutions that I have recently came up with that I want to fulfill before i get enlisted:

1) To let my her know I always love her even i'm in the army and nothing can cripple our love. *To put it simply, i want to spent more time with her.

2) Get my driving liscense!

3) Get a part-time job and save up for rainy days.

4) Learn the art of saving money because saving money is a good virtue.

5) Meet up with my oldies- The ZEEs. ( I MISS THEM IF YOU GUYS STILL HAPPENS TO READ MY BLOG)

Technically, these are the few "must-dos" before the enlistment date.

Today was a fun-filled day with Sengie. Walking down lanes and streets just to locate Haji Lane! I swear I have never walk so far until our legs are sore and we are still laughing and having fun! We always spent "quality" time together don't you agree? :D I mean really quality la. I always cherish the time together.

The past few days, we have been doing some shopping for the TP graduation night. I'm so happy that she is willing to be my partner for the day though i never really asked her properly. Today, we went to exchange her bag that we previously bought it at Far East Plaza. This shop that sells women accessories like bags, shades and even dresses has a very unique selling policy. Customers that purchase any items from that shop can exchange the any items in the shop within three working days due to damage of goods, or a change in preference of goods whatsoever so long you still have the receipt. Cool isn't it??

Then we headed down to Orchard Ion to shop around and went down to Selegie to have some delicious bean curd! A bowl of cold bean curd paired with a crispy fried you cha kway is simply delicious. We spent some time there trying to replenish our energy for our expedition later!!!

So what's the long expedition about? HAHA! We walked down lanes after lanes, streets after streets just to locate where Haji Lane is!!!! Later did we find out that we are making one big round to get to Haji Lane. It was really encouraging to know that though :s So we had our bean curd all burned up as energy to walk and walk. Lucky i have you to walk with me :D

* Baby, you are someone important in my life and someone whom I don't wanna hurt at all. I don't mean to hurt you in any way and my intentions were all good for you. I know I am harsh sometimes, but the underlying reason is love. I would rather I bear all the pain than to see you in pain! You get it? :(

Halves

2010-03-07T04:49:00.000-08:00

Dear love,

I know in every single relationship, there isn't a single one that's perfect. Perhaps it might seen blissful and happy to others on the outside, but every single one has its hidden troubles which some might choose not to see. Every single minuscule flaw can make a huge impact, alter the fault line and crack things in half. I know for sure, that things between us has always been real and there's nothing to hide.

Through all these ups and downs, I know now more than ever, that this is something really worth working for. Things would've fallen apart if it hasn't been for our trust and understanding for each other. Every single day, I'm thankful for that because you've been the most brilliant and you're exactly what I need. I don't wish for someone with the ability to read my mind, lavish me in tender loving care and give me things in my wildest dreams. I just need and want you, and that's enough to make me fall asleep with a smile on my face.

I remember the very first time you texted me, that first message left me smiling before I go to sleep. Up till now, all of your messages have that similar effect on me. You make me smile, and you give me reasons to smile when I'm feeling really down. It seems like you're a happy pill, which I have a dosage of almost every second. Every text, every call, every little silly thing you do feeds me with happiness I can never express to anyone else. I don't know if you know I feel that way, but I do. Every single day, and I'm going to need you - my happy pill, for the rest of forever. Is that enough? I think it isn't sufficient. We only live once, and I'm grateful I took chances and look where we are now.

I also remember the very first time you talked to me properly. It was awkward, but at the same time heartwarming. You were perspiring and gross after a POL-ITE match, but I guess that didn't stop you from saying what your heart really felt did it? I think little things like that really do make a huge impression on the rest of our lives. I never will regret waving back at you the very first time you asked for my name.
Ours hasn't been a long story, but the read has been good thus far. Pieces fall together when we are both working for it. Days seem so much more bearable with you by my side. No matter how short this period of time has been, I'm convinced if you stretched every single memory end to end, it would last for eternity.

I love you. From the bottom of my heart really. Every single bit, every flaw, every tantrum we've thrown, every jealousy fits. It makes you you, it reminds me every bit of the very fiery person who seems so full of energy that I fell for. That's never going to change. Life is going to blow hard at us from every single direction, but every gust would weather and toughen us up for bigger obstacles we can so easily overcome. You're everything, there's no doubt about it.

All i wanted...

2010-03-07T01:21:00.000-08:00

All i know is you really worth my everything

2010-02-27T09:53:00.001-08:00

Outsiders may judge us, they may question our love, they may think we are not going to make it or maybe trying to break us up in some means. Well, all i can say is our relationship is tough and will remain as it is even through the ravages of time!

You are the one who made me turn up for every hockey training, trying all means to attract your attention but failed :/ You made me feel so comfortable when i'm talking to you. Remembering that time when you added me on facebook, i got so crazy that i turned and tossed on my bed, throwing my pillows all over! All these precious memories make me so happy and wish time could get back in time.

No matter who i was and what i did in the past, you are able to accept me for who i am. That's why i am willing to make a change and you are the reason why i change for the better. Thank you so much for coming into my life because you have made everything worthwhile. ILY! Happy three mths! :D

BBQ @ Mr Ang's Orchid Garden

2010-02-26T10:26:00.000-08:00

It was generous of Mr Ang to open his space within his orchid garden for our annual new year gathering. We had a small scale BBQ and a get together session in which we sang chinese new year songs and give our wishes and blessings to all the people who were present.

His garden is a nice place to be in! A kampong-liked area which you can rarely find in Singapore, a place that is serene and peaceful in the morning as well as the night. What makes it more unique is Mr Ang's collection of a great variety of orchids and other flowers. A little bit of insight, Mr Ang grows orchid and flowers for a living. These lovely flowers will be grown and well taken care of until they are matured, these flowers will be distributed to keen buyers.

However, i heard from Mr Ang that his flower business is needed to be ceased because the government is going to seal up this area for future re-development! Probably, today will be the last time we hold BBQ there. :(

Singapore has already lost its uniqueness and authenticity. A place which was once a fishing village has transformed itself into a cosmopolitan city with walled-up high rise buildings. I guess such places should be preserved and left untouched so that the younger generations will have the chance to see what a kampong hut is like? The Singapore Tourism Board (STB) calls Singapore a "Uniquely Singapore" and what is the unique propositions of Singapore when its original image is gone? This is just something to ponder about!

So, Sengie gets to see Mr Ang's Garden for the last time since she joined us for the annual CNY gathering :) Thank me ok? :P

Sengie trying to take a photo with the pots of orchids with a torch! :)

We tried to take a snapshot of us with the flowers but it was pitch dark. So, failed :)

I shall update more photos tml since most of the photos are in the other camera. Alright, i'm off to bed. See you folks~

A bad start of the day comes with something rewarding!

2010-02-24T08:36:00.004-08:00

Woke up as early as 8:30 am to prepare for my appointment at SGH. The doctor was a absolute retard because he keeps exclaiming there is nothing wrong when i can feel the acute pain on my right shoulder. What makes me more frustrated is that i have to pay him $87 for consultation fee. Say a few words and get that amount of money, i seriously think they need to do some charity man if not they may just die early @!$#$^#&^.

Supposedly, Sengie was to meet me at the SGH because she needs to visit her friend who is seriously ill. (*God bless you, sincerely from the bottom of my heart) But her friend discharged not long ago,so i met her at Bedok instead. I was so looking forward to see her because i really miss her. The long lost smile on her face is finally back, because she just ended her examinations satisfactorily. I am very happy for her as well because today marks the day of freedom, temporarily though! :D

So we headed down to Cineleisure to have our sushi buffet! It was splendid spread but i was so full that my stomach was bloated after that. But, the sushi is seriously awesome, especially when i'm eating with her. haha~ Then, we catch a movie afterwards. It's called the Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. At first, we wanted to catch two movies in a row, but the timing wasn't to our favour so we settled down with one.

This movie is directed by the renowned director for the Harry Potter Movies. So, you can tell how magical and exhilarating the story line can be. It's definitely a worth watch because it keeps you adrenaline pumping because you can't expect what is going to happen next. For girls, the male lead is handsome and charismatic young lad that will keep you drooling throughout the movie. So, go for it :D

Oh, i was approached by some modelling agency people today! HAHA~ Was quite surprised though. Shall see what happens the next few days :)

After the movie, we went back to Tampines to have our light dinner. We shared a packet of large fries and had two chocolate cones subsequently. My stomach can only store that much after a hearty sushi buffet you know? OF course, i'm handsomely rewarded with a big belly! WELL DONE RYAN.

The "clicking" Shoulders

2010-02-23T08:24:00.000-08:00

How wonderful is that to have a shoulder that constantly produce a "click" sound when i rotate it? I can even make music beats out of it :) Ok, i shouldn't be joking about it. Well, I went to check it out on the internet and this symptoms can be diagnosed as tendinitis inflammation according to a healthcare journal on musculoskeletal health.

The symptoms of "clicking" shoulders is common to sportsmen who are actively involve in sports such as swimming, badminton, tennis, cricket in which the overhead arm motion is thrown repetitively. I am a hockey player since i was in Primary 4, and this may be the absolute reason. This shoulder problem has been bugging me for a year and it seems like its getting more and more painful as time goes by.

I am going to the Singapore General Hospital (SGH) to consult an orthopedic. Shall see how it goes. The appointment is at 10:30 am which means i have to wake up early tomorrow! OH NO! MY SLEEP :(

But, tomorrow i will be meeting my gf! At least i have something to look forward to. She will be taking her Business Fundamentals examinations at 9:30 am till 11:30 am. Then she will be heading to find me. I can't wait and have been longing for the day she end her exams because i really miss her smile. The day when she is carefree *which is tomorrow, i will get to see her smile again! And the attention she have not been giving me! HEHE~

Alright, hopes everything goes well! Love you girl. :)

Lesson Learnt...

2010-02-17T11:09:00.001-08:00

There is no secret manual that guides people to love someone and make that relationship last! It is through problems that we have faced that make us stronger and not repeat the mistakes.

Instead of demanding my partner to change for the better, i ought to evaluate myself what can i change or do for her. Isn't that more feasible and reasonable? I guess i have to start practising what i preach before its too late! :X

Do some soul searching CHIA HAN XIANG!

When MeowMeow betrayed us!

2010-02-16T09:32:00.000-08:00

If you have read my gf's blog, you would know that there is this cat which follows us every single time i sent her home. Without fail, we will see "her" at the same spot and this cat will rub "her" body against our legs and snuffle around us, trying to catch our attention. Since then, we decided to keep her as our pet and we came up with a unique name called "Meowmeow".

To us, she is a very cute loyal kitty until today!!! :( As usual, we will stay at this particular spot near her house before we head home. Not long after we settle down, our long awaited Meowmeow appeared! We had a good time with her and we took quite a few photos with her.

Our Meowmeow on my lap:)

Meowmeow sat down when Sengie commanded her!

Meowmeow using her butt to bump Sengie's leg. Stop seducing my girl you stupid cat!

The motherly love :D

Our love for Meowmeow has deepened from that moment on when she did something that we would not expect... ... Our perception of "her" was fine when this malay couple came. All along, we thought that she will only find us and will only snuffle and hobble around us whenever we appear. Our Meowmeow betrayed US! She left us and went to find the malay couple. What makes us even more saddening was Meowmeow did the exact same thing to the malay couple who just arrived not long. :(

Well, we decided to ignore Meowmeow and take some snapshots of ourselves.

What were we doing ?:S

Anyway, the day was well spent with her. I was happy that my paternal and maternal side of my relatives got to know my gf alrdy. They had good remarks of her (only i know and she is still unaware) and they seem to see her as part of my family. This is a great breakthrough. More to come baby! ILY

CNY=Valentines' Day

2010-02-13T01:51:00.000-08:00

Nothing special to look forward to. Every year seems to be the same from reunion dinner, house visits, receiving ang baos (my parents will keep them for me?! -.-) to every single bit of this "festive" seasons, it just seems so repetitive and no meaning at all.

Valentines Day falls on the 14th Feb which coincides with the CNY, so i wonder how many couples can juggle between honeymooning with their love ones and gathering with their friends and relatives. For me, i treat everyday like valentines day, just that 14 February makes it more exclusive. I doubt if i could meet up with my gf because both of us have to go house visits and she has to study for her exams. Without valentines day, i will still love her as much, no less but more :D

To Sengie: An advance new year and valentines day wishes! :) I guess we have the same sentiments that this festive season ain't festive at all. I understand how stressful you are right now and i couldn't do anything to lessen it. But i promise to stand by you, and walk you through this tough time together. Stress are good because it spurs you to work even harder and strive for the best. Managing your stress effectively will make you attain even higher achievements way beyond your imagination. Trust me for this :)

Be my valentine baby :)

The Unpleasant...

2010-02-08T08:07:00.001-08:00

Feeling all messed up and uncomfortable now. I am finding ways to eliminate this damn feeling of mine but to no avail. The feeling isn't a single emotion, but a mixture that makes me feel so weird and don't know what is going on. All i know is i am feeling terrible now.

Can anyone tell me why am i feeling this way? I need to make a change for i am making the people around me unhappy. It isn't just about me anymore. Its about us and what i do affects you. So, i should account for the helplessness you are feeling now but i think its too late isn't it?

Probably giving you room to breathe will make things better.

Lost...

2010-02-01T07:35:00.000-08:00

Has anyone feel lost before? It's like when you know there is some problem but can't think of way to solve it. Even if you try to solve it, nothing makes it better. I am feeling it right now. Lost, clueless and i feel like i'm a failure.

What can i do to make you feel protected? Please open up to me

On the 28th of Every Month

2010-01-27T09:25:00.000-08:00

28th of every month? It's not someone's birthday, not a public holiday or any festive occasions, but our two months of relationship. You may wonder two months is just a short span of time and it is still the "honeymoon" period. But I cherish the days we had together be it good or bad. I am looking forward to many more 28th :D

I know you are the one and it seems like I know so much about you. I compromise and learn how to make things work out between us. Frankly speaking, I have never been so serious before and wanting a long lasting relationship and i know you can see the effort i'm putting in.

I understand that you have been feeling stressful due to school assignments and I can't help you in anyway. But i guess being with you and stand by you will the the next best alternative to keep you fighting on. I believe in myself, you and us!

* What would you do if you received MINDEF letter to report at Sembawang Naval Base for vocational assessment?

The Vibe School Life

2010-01-25T18:28:00.000-08:00

I am back to school once again! Being excited about school has never occur to me after i have gone through 5-months of working life. Yesterday was my first day of school and the moment i reached the school entrance, i was so happy because i miss my friends, the fun and laughters, lectures and tutorials and of course the food! :D

Going back to school will mean there is more time to meet up my girlfriend and i would not have to worry about her at work. After school, it will be easier for us to meet up as well :)

Just another 3 more weeks, i will be graduating. So i am going to maximise why time in school because i will be deprive of school life for 2 years. Guys will probably know what i mean by devoting two years of your life away.

Ryan's Live Update

2010-01-17T05:59:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps, I'm back with my latest updates! :D My life has been eventful and many happy things have outweigh the unhappy ones. I've come to realise that my life does not live in the shadows of people especially when rumours are spreading like wild fires. Turning a deaf ear and remain ignorant is the best solution because i believe in us, you and me! Let's turn the tide and face more challenges together.

Well, just a sneak preview of what i have been doing lately.

- Asian Basketball League (ABL) @ the Singapore Indoor Stadium with Sengie. (11 January 2010)

Singapore Slingers vs KL Dragons(KL)

This was taken at the bus stop after the basketball match

She's having a spasm on her face. Does it hurt smiling that way? :P

My skills of acting cute has improved leaps and bounds when i know her. Thanks baby!

Classic (Y)

- In School with Sengie (16 January 2010)

This was taken @ the library

>:( & :P

Her cheek is "jitao" kena squashed! LOL LOL

I changed my MSN Skin. Looks cool isn't it?? I changed in while studying in the library:)

Now @ the Business faculty canteen. Photo-taking never ends~

SWEET!

Cute!

ehmmm... YUMS

That's all for the photos because i think there's enough of diabetic patients out there. Anyway, i'm left with five more working days before my internship is over. After experiencing working, i find that school life is much better. I miss school life and can't wait to back to school for my capstone module! The zest of life in school has been missing out and i want to feel it again!

I am wondering what to get for my supervisors before i leave to show my little appreciation. I am thankful that i have them as my mentors which made my internship life a great learning experience. Any ideaaas?

Everything didn't go too well.

2010-01-05T09:51:00.001-08:00

Everything seemed so unpleasant today. I need a change to keep this going. If this goes on, nothing good will happen. I don't wish to use the word that we have been stopping each other to use because it serves no meaning if used too much.

I just felt that way and I should just take it easy. Really take it easy. Despite all these unpleasant incident, i am thankful.

Not being with you was right!

2010-01-03T04:42:00.000-08:00

Certainly, definitely and will always be! Being with you will always be my greatest regret. Not for you but for myself at least!

I am not replying to any of the posts or smses but to protect myself. First and foremost, when i was with you, you didn't even tell me the truth. You had an affair with this guy which i don't want to name, and you didn't tell me when i was together with you. So you treat me as your boyfriend? I really wonder?! "/

Because of this, you made that guy think i was the one who separated him from you when you didn't even make it clear to him? Created so much "hooha" and make everyone think i'm a fucktard and making yourself like an angel when u created all this! PERFECT!

I was just keeping quiet all along because i want to save your "face". I also know what you did with that guy which totally disgust me and you are still trying to hide? WONDERFUL!

Secondly, I must admit I was a jerk to have left you after so much promises. But i guess what you did has made everything on par between us? You did mention to me that you are going to forget. So was that an empty promises that you started so much trifles behind my back making things seemed like you are in the right and i'm in the wrong?

Lastly, if you hear from someone that i am childish, who is the one being childish here? You think you are not? If you are, then you should have told the ugly truth about yourself and stop making yourself as angelic as possible when you are not! I was kind enough to save your dignity by not naming the guy or anything about your past. So to others you are perfect and i am all in the wrong, but to me, the image of you has totally tarnished!

Happy 2010!!!

2010-01-01T05:34:00.000-08:00

Year 2009 passes like a blink of an eye. So many things happened but i am still thankful about it. Baby, our relationship is one month and three days old and nothing can be happier to celebrate the mark of a new year with you!

Yesterday we had a "funtastic" countdown at BREWERKZ Clarke Quay together with my clique-ZEEs! This is like a get together session because we have not been catching up due to our own commitments. Being able to celebrate with them was definitely fun!

When my watch struck 12, cheers and sounds of whistle and poppers can be heard across the pubs and bars at Clarke Quay. Everyone was partying and expressing their well wishes in their own ways. As for me and her, we went to catch a glimpse of the fireworks display accompanied by hugs and kisses. Although it wasn't spectacular as it was blocked by buildings, but i guess we were contented that we could spent the new year together and witness everything.

For whatever it is, i still love her for who she is. There are people out there trying to make life difficult but just bear in mind, i am blissfully fortunate to be with her! Some people just think too highly of themselves who thinks they can fuck around, but to me, you are less than a shit so do some reflections! You know yourself~

We have come so far and i am grateful for all the things you have did for me. The times we have spent together be it good or bad, it is something to reflect on and make our relationship even sturdier. Thanks for being with me. ILY

BREWERKZ. We do what werkz!

some of the ZEEs + Me + Sengie

The smiles on our faces...

The handsome and pretty. What a match~

Tongue kissing using party whistle. LOL!

When baby gets aggressive. DODGE!!!

The masked couple (Y)

OMG~ so cute.. I mean myself :P

bleah :p

Look at how crazy baby is! She is squeezing my cheek...

In fact i still have more photos to share but i think this should be enough :) I got to go and rest. Have fallen sick since Thursday and until now i still have not recover. I need rest. Happy New Year folks! CHEERS!

If it just going to stay like that... GOOD!

2009-12-12T10:46:00.000-08:00

Nothing is as happy as devoting all my time to her. We have our own commitments and we can only meet up after my working hours. So, having the luxury to be with her the whole day really worth a lot to me.

Time passes like a blink of an eye, and we are officially together for 15 days! The sweet 15 days never fail to keep me motivated.

We went down to Five Stars Travel Agency to check out for packages to Batam. The price is very reasonable and all I hope for is there is still availability of hotel rooms because we have no confirm the trip yet. But, it is stil something to look forward to!

Then we headed down to Bugis Village to do some shopping. Having had that intention to buy a haversack (bag pack) for so long, i finally bought it at ZINC. Searching for my bag was a pain because we went to different shops but the bags are simply too small for my big body frame. In the end, we found it!

Looks nice isn't it? :)

It is well supported with comfortable paddings

After shopping, i accompanied her to Pasir Ris Downtown East to her class chalet. We sat down on a breakwater and look at the stars. Starry night indeed and the sea breeze was awesome! With the starry sky and the cool sea breeze, it has made a perfect lover paradise just for the two of us. If only i could take a snapshot of the sky that are filled tiny shimmering stars. But i guess these photos are good enough:

I have never tasted so much of a love before but now it seems like it! Thanks for coming into my life and made it so wonderful. With love:)

I hope you can be happier and leave the past aside.

2009-12-05T08:35:00.000-08:00

After umpteen times of repeating " I want to cut my hair" to Sengie, she can finally see me stepping into a salon to get my hair trimmed for she was sick and tired of hearing me saying that for two weeks. She wanted to study at Seng Kang, so it was sweet of her to meet me somewhere near my house to accompany me for my haircut.

Previously, my hair was long and messy but now, my hair style is shorter and i look much younger(*according to Sengie and Sabrina) and clean-shaven. I love my hair to have a certain thickness and volume but now, i have to wait for my hair to grow longer to get back the volume and thickness.

Hair Left-Side View

Hair Right-Side View

Front View ( I look like a boy boy now -.-)

The Back View. I requested the hair stylist to cut my tail shorter then leave my back a little bit thicker to have a certain volume.

After my haircut, my mum called me to buy japanese cucumber to make sushi for our lunch. We went to two marts but neither of the shop sell. So, we make a long way down to Prime Mart and thank god we found it. Sengie was a little stressed up because she still have many modules to revise and she is nowhere finishing the revision. Sorry to make you walk around.

It was quite bad of me to leave her outside my house to wait for me while i get prepare. I told my mum about it and then was nagging at me for leaving her outside. So i called her to come in. Sorry haha! It was great to have her at my house because she get to know my family members and try out my mum's sushi. :D

Lovey dovey.. and that's definitely! We just can't get enough of each other. Sorry to those who are jealous and are trying very hard. I know everything and i know some idiots are doing something to stop her from liking me. But my advise is try harder because i have nothing to fear. Bear in mind, if you ever gonna step on my tail, don't blame me for being harsh because that's when you get what you deserve. I am capable of doing that so get that into your puny brains.

When things fall into place... ...

2009-11-29T03:40:00.000-08:00

When all of you think my blog is "dying", fret not! I'm back to share my updated experiences and memorable incidents.

Advance wishes to the November twin, Peh Weidong and See Kaixuan. They share the same birthday, 30th November 2009 and the term "twin" best suits them even though they are not from the same family. To make their birthday a memorable one, we had a night stay cum partying for them in one of the non-cruising house boat at ONE° 15 MARINA CLUB yesterday.

A night with cool sea breeze, shiny shimmering stars... ... Confession and indulgence. Everything just falls in place. I was so happy since its their birthday and double the happiness to be together with her and forever!

28th November 2009 shall mark the day when we embark on our very own journey. With strong tidal waves, we overcome. Nothing can ever stop us because i have faith in you, me and us! :D

Like a new lease of life

2009-11-13T09:28:00.000-08:00

Work... POL-ITE Hockey competition... Trainings... These are the things that i have been revolving around throughout this month which explains why i have not been updating my blog other than being plain lazy!

Yes! I am indeed very tired and my performance at work seems to be affected. I guess my supervisors are really lenient enough to bear with me. But, i really need to buck up because i feel very guilty when my supervisors are treating me so nice and i am not doing a good job. RYAN YOU GOTTA WAKE UP!!!

Thank god, i have something to look forward to and it seems like i have gotten a new lease of life. Must be a gift from heaven and i am really loving it. Why? *i'm not going to tell you until the time is right!* I should say the feeling is more than just happy. Excited? Thrilling? Reminiscing? It's a fusion i guess:)

Ok..Shan't comment much. I am going to cherish this for sure. Goodnight to all.

When will Singaporeans learn to be gracious?

2009-11-02T06:25:00.000-08:00

I was on my way back from hockey training and as usual i took bus 27 to get back home! The bus was still moderately pack when it reaches the bus stop near the Tampines MRT station.

Then, i heard a faint voice which gets louder as the people are moving to the rear of the bus. I saw this lady in her mid 30s shouting to ask people to move in so that more passengers can get on board the bus.

"Can all of you please move in? Be gracious, everyone wants to go home at this hour! I can see space at the back of the bus!!!" That was what the lady shouted and she said it repeatedly. I was amazed by her bravery. I feel that she did her part to get the message across to all the inconsiderate passengers that they must learn to be gracious. No one wants to be the "bad guy" so she decided to do it!

Some passengers were furious by her actions and started to shout back at her and asked her to keep quiet. Just reflect and think deep, we live in a developed country with good education system in place and yet, we are an empty vessel with no volume at all! To be frank, i am ashamed because we are educated and yet we don't behave like what an educated person should be. Look good on the exterior but internally, it's so awful!

When it comes to public transport, i have tons of story to tell. Let me share this vivid experience i had while taking the Northeast Line. I took the train in the morning and its the "rush hour" period! Everyone is squeezing and cutting queue just to get a space in the train. There's no other place better than the MRT station to see the ugly side of Singaporean.

I was lucky to get a space to stand but the train was so full that i standing at the edge of the doorstep. Suddenly, this uncle came running and throw himself in to the cabin. I was caught off guard and i fell to the ground since i'm not holding on to the pole. I got so angry that i just scolded him in front of everyone.

Thank god there isn't any pregnant woman. What happens if i hit a pregnant woman? This is not a laughing matter and i told the uncle just that! He is my elder and yet he can't think as someone older. What an irony!~ Shouldn't we get mature and think better as we grow older? Perhaps he is just the extraordinary.

I guess we need to be aware of what we are doing and spare a thought for everyone to make the world a better place to live in. All of us are interdependent and we don't live alone. So lets learn to be gracious.

Some funny photos taken at my roadshow to hype up my post a little:

Follow Me Beauty Workshop at the Amore Women's Day Out Roadshow. What am i doing there?

Omg~ really cannot make it!

Day Out with Gillian XD

2009-10-25T08:41:00.000-07:00

At least i have something to look forward to, i met up with Gillian for movie today :) We watched 500 days of Summer and i swear its a good movie to watch. To al my friends out there who have not been watching movie, this is a must watch.

The movie tells a story of the relationship between Summer (Girl) and Tom (Guy) in 500 days in a funny proposition. Summer is a girl who does not believe in true love and Tom is a laid back and a failure in love life.

He then starts to fall in love with Summer. They got together not labelled as girlfriend and boyfriend officially and Tom was dumped by Summer to married another man leaving him to analyse the 500 days of courtship, to figure out where and how it went wrong. Its a comedy i agree, but it made me teared when the story is nearer to the ending.

The story is like a repetition of my love life with one of my ex-girl friend. I considered her as my ex girl friend but i wonder if she does since we are dating underground. Similar to the movie, i was dumped by her and she ended the story just like that. Now that she has found her love, i felt i was left in lurch with nothing to turn the tide at all. I could understand everything, but i couldn't forgive the fact that she told me she can't be attached until the age of 19 when she is together with this guy now. People really change and i really have got nothing to say.

As usual, i always like to take photos. That's me and Gillian :)

Take 1 !

Wasn't satisfied with the outcome of the picture, so i decided to take it without flashlight. But it seems many shadows are casting on our faces.

So, i took the third picture. Though i smile like crap but i think its nicely taken :)

A fulfilling Saturday!

2009-10-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

I woke up as early as 5:45am in the morning for hockey training at Delta Sports Complex where Redhill MRT Station is nearby. We had a combine training with the Crescent Girls Secondary School and played a friendly match with them. I had never play hockey that early ever. I seriously forced myself out of bed and i hesitated whether to go for the training because the venue is so far and i am so deprive of sleep lately. Well, i went for the training ultimately.

After i had my lunch with my fellow team mates, i got home at around 12:30pm. So i took a nap till 3:00pm and travelled to Jurong Point to work. Today is the second day of the mini mass workout and so, i have to go down to take photos and have a look at the event progress even though i do not have to work on Saturday. I had so much fun there! Check out some photos that i have taken:

Kelvin, the emcee addressing the Amore Fitness instructors before they start the kick-boxing routines

The fearsome stance they portrayed when they are doing the kick-boxing regime. Women can be as powerful, so guys beware!!!

The mini mass workout participants in real action! They seemed that they are enjoying the workout so much so that i want to join in the fun. But well, i have to change my gender first. LOL.

Who says the elderly can only do light exercise?! See it for yourself. They are even stronger than you may think :) *Thumbs up*

Regretfully,the picture is blur. But i swear the instructors are hot when they are doing the belly dance! *sizzles* That explains why i only managed to took one picture. Because all the other time i was watching them performing with my own naked eyes! Shhh~~~

After the event, i met up with Wei Dong and Kai Xuan for dinner. It's been a long time since the three of us met up. I have been meeting Kai Xuan for dinner and drinks but hardly meet up Wei Dong. We decided to head to a pub just opposite Paradiz Centre to sing and drink beer.

We realised we've lost out so much fun together ever since our internship started. We always patronise pubs to sing and own people more than drinking beer! Haha~ We finally had the chance and we sang so well that people from the other table clapped and came over to cheers with us! *Thumbs up*

Foster Beer!!! I still prefer Hoegaarden though

See Kai Xuan with her cheeky smile!

That's me with that blur look. Like forever~~~ :X

And not to miss out Wei Dong, he is always with that act cute look whenever he is taking photo! LOL!

First take failed because Wei Dong's head is being cut off. This was taken when we left the pub.

Second take was much better :) Cheese!!!

The three musketeers shall meet up again soon! :)

My baby photo in my grandma's very own collection of albums.

2009-10-22T07:54:00.000-07:00

Today marks the day of grandma's 100th day since her death last year. So, being filial children and grandchildren, there is a ceremonial for her with the aim to pay respect to her and that her legacy remains in our hear

Initially, i have to work today but i took leave so that i can be there since i was well doted by my grandma when she was still alive. I woke up as early as 7 o'clock to prepare and wash up so that we would not be late for the ceremonial. The ritual starts at 9 and ends at around 4 plus in the evening.

When the ritual was over, i went up to my grandma's house to change to a fresh pair of clothes because by then my shirt is soaking wet due to the hot and humid weather! I went into the room which my grandma used to sleep in. I saw her drawer was opened and it caught my attention. Out of curiosity, i opened her drawer to see what's inside. I saw a collection photo album.

This is the collection of photo albums.

I flipped through the photos and saw many wedding photos of her children ( My aunts and uncles including my parents too). I even saw many of her grandchildren photos which she dotes most. I saw baby photos of Puay Kee, Ah koon, Ah yong, Jia Xian, Hong Qing and mine too. I was so grieved by the fact that she is gone forever and images of the past kept flashing one by one.

I remember when i go to her house with my mum, she will always buy kueh lapis for me to eat whether rain of shine. She always asked me if i want to drink water. But now that she is gone, i felt her presence was one of my happiest moments.

This was seen in her collection of photo album. I felt so honored. This was taken at my previous house at Hougang Ave 10. I am still as cute as ever. HAHAHA!

I hope grandma will blessed all of us and that she can rest in peace. Her legacy that she left behind and her unbiased love will definitely stay in my heart. I love you ah ma!