L.O.V.E

What does L.O.V.E stands for? Many have different meanings for it. It can be easily spelled out but knowing the true meaning is definitely a whole new issue.

As for me, i would like to understand it the simplest way it can be. Love is a form of expression through actions. It comes right from the heart which is then express through actions. Human likes to complicate things by defining things with formulas, profound terminologies when its just straight to the point and easy. Agree?

Having said that, i still having problems loving. I realise love is very subjective and many people feels differently about it. Loving your way may not be a form of love to the other party when they think otherwise. For instance, i know my gf don't like me to be worried. But i still am because i am worried for her safety and her well-being. However, she feels vexed because she can't do anything about me worrying. So, i'm caught in a dilemma.

Giving another example... My gf feels that she should not text me when i am busy because she may disrupt my work process. This is a form of love! But i decipher it the other way because i was hoping that she can text me and tell me she is worried about me and that she missed me dearly or at least post something sweet on my fb wall so that i feel warm and fuzzy. You see the point i am trying to deliver.

Even until now, i am still trying to understand. :(

Feeling like a Frog in a Well

Arghhh! Everyone around me are going on a vacation! I have friends going to Hong Kong, Taiwan, Bangkok… Even my sworn brothers and my younger brother are having fun in Australia (Adelaide, Brisbane).

I am so bored at home stoning in front of my laptop and at the same time allowing my body to recuperate from illness :( Pathetic to the max level 100! My work shift does not allow me to go on a long getaway trip and all i could do is to imagine myself travelling abroad while looking at photos of my friends in exotic places on Facebook.

Travelling has been something i always sought after for. When i was young, my ambition was to travel around the world, and so is today! I love the thrill factor of flying on a plane, and expecting so many interesting events of fun and discovery when you touch down on somewhere unfamiliar. It will definitely be an added bonus if you are travelling with your friends and your love ones, agree?

I have plans to study abroad in Australia after my National Service. It will be a great chance to know how independent i can be through living in a totally new environment and adapting to the lifestyle and cultural diversities. One thing for sure is that the memories will be so reminiscing when you look back at the times you spent in foreign land and that you have stories to tell your future generation.

Cough, sneeze and headache.

If only good things happen like "3-in-1". Having to endure three different sickness altogether is really tough. Coughing out phlegm, sneezing that makes my head spins which resulted in sharp pain at the back of my head... These only tell a sign that i need to rest!

sneeze sneeze sneeze  

But the irony is i spent most of my available time sleeping. Even my gf complains that i am a pig. Probably i haven't gotten used to the work shift pattern. Shift 1 is morning shift (8am till 8pm) and shift 2 is night shift (8pm till 8am), follow by two off days.

The job can be demanding at times because the safety and custodial responsibility of the PICs relies solely on the lock up officers and we have to be vigilant. I am just praying that i can recover soon so that i can start spending my time better than to sleep it away.

I want to start my gym training! I have stopped going since last week and my body is shrinking. I hate it! Time to wack some weights soon!

Most importantly, i want to let my gf knows how much i love her and that nothing can hamper us or our relationship. I am sure we can tide through this tough times together. Be positive and make used of every opportunity to learn. It will be fruitful and rewarding. LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS :P

p@nd@ Eyes :(

Now i have eyes like panda. I am feeling so exhausted after my first day at work. The workload was crazy and everyone got so busy especially nearing the end of our shift work. Time passes by so fast that my body has been working for 12 hours and was feeling all numbed.

Today will be my night shift and i am wondering if i can take it. :/ I better start stocking up some herbal tea for i will fall sick in no time.

I am cooking porridge for my dear dear cause she is sick :( I hope she will get better soon. I cook really nice porridge although i have never cooked them before. I guess its when you love her so much that you are willing to try anything impossible. Power of love huh... Thanks dear <3

I'm back again! :)

WOW! How surprising that i start to blog in the wee hour after not doing so for almost a month or so. Initially, i had the idea of deleting my blog as i was too lazy and i doubt i will have the time to maintain it. But, i got my gf to 'revamp' my blog all over again hoping for a new start, so that i can post more happy and interesting posts.

Many interesting and eventful things took place recently and i have yet to update them on my blog. But those who added me on Facebook would have already know that i just graduated from my basic police training on the 3rd of March. That took place exactly two weeks ago and after passing out from Home Team Academy, i am posted to Bedok Police Divisional Headquarter as a Person-in-Custody officer. To put it briefly, i am in-charge of escorting accused and "jagar" the lock up! Tomorrow will be the first day of my work and hopefully everything goes well.

On that happy occasion, my family including my girlfriend and two of my childhood buddies were there to witness the parade. I was thankful that they came despite the rainy weather. Here are some photos snapshots:

From left to right (Dad, mum, gf and me, younger brother)

These are my childhood buddies (Feng Yuan and Brian) :)
Who's that chick beside me ??? ;D
NS 46- My fellow squad mates and our former F.I
'With power comes greater responsibilities! "

I think i look smart in my uniform, agree with me? Shall update what i have missed out lately on the subsequent post, if not i can't wake up on time for work tomorrow. Seeeeeeyyaaaaa~~~

Hi blogger!

I can't freaking figure out what is happening. Everything is falling hard on me mercilessly that i have no chance of getting back to who i used to be. Nothing in life breaks even. Whatever you do, you will never get the same in return. Whoever came up with that "Boomerang Theory- What comes around goes around" is simply bullshit. Even if it's true, it will never apply to me.

How should i hang on when no one is reciprocating to me or whatever i do. I have feelings too and i just felt like it was all stepped on to the ground real hard. Am i of any importance?

Fuck my life, screw everything because nothing is real.

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